life doesn't make sense

[k_y]

So today was suppose to be one of my greatest victories yet. It failed me though! It's Aaron's brothers wedding today, which I was going to attend and show him how stupid he was for doing me wrong, ONCE AGAIN! Thank goodness for Scotty calling me and talking sense into me lastnight, or I might have shown up and made myself look like a fool. Scotty called Aaron lastnight and was talking to him about what had been going on in his life and stuff considering Scotty no longer lives here, he's a million miles away and the least Aaron could do was pretend that he was interested in what Scotty had to say. So I guess according to Scotty, he asked Aaron about him and I and about the wedding and if I was going and what not? And I guess Aaron didn't sound the least bit concerned if I went anymore, and that just tore Scotty apart, considering how much I love Aaron. So Scotty called me back right away and told me to not go to the wedding bc Aaron basically wouldn't even care. My heart sank bc I was planning on going to this wedding and meeting his whole family, and they fall in love with me and end up knocking sense into Aaron. But I guess when you're that thick headed nothing can change your point that had already been crossed. So here I am sitting at my moms house on the wedding day, looking like shit, debating in my mind of what could have possibly happened at the wedding, the what if's and the what not's. Maybe I should be there right now? Who knows? It really sucks that I had this all planned out, to make him take me back, this whole vision that I had dreamed just now failed me. I guess sometimes things aren't meant to be? Maybe one day things will go the way I want them to, but until then I will go on living a life that is torn by heartache.
To top it off I told Aaron i wasn't going to the wedding and he didn't even care, he doesn't even realize what he's doing to me.
Now my outlook on guys will be completely burned for the rest of my life, I will never be able to trust another guy again. One more name to put on the list of guys that I can't trust. (not to mention my dad)
To think the people that you love the most, hurt you the worst.........