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oi, Im thinking about tomorrow alot now. Im kinda like confused and a little scared whats gonna happen. I have no idea how i am gonna feel when it happens, and the complete lack of any idea how she will act toward me also is a little disconcerting. Everything has changed so much, things we said would never happen things we promised each other all gone. What should I do? how should I act? Im so confused ive been tempted to jusst not go, but I know I have to. I know it is probably going to hurt but I dont know any other thing to do. This kinda sucks. I wish things were even just for the weekend like i thought they would be. I know that isnt gonna probably happen though. Again it gets more real.