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Jesus I cant keep lying to myself like this I cant keep the fake mask up i tried all day and i finally cracked thinking about what shes doing. I really miss her I wish I was with her right now and this whole break thing is not easy on me. I dont know i think its that i need something to hold on to now because im so lost and confused and shes the only thing I know to hold on to at these times. I just hate that my needs conflict with what she seems to want right now. My life seems at times as this to be a series of badly timed events. Im not gonna fall apart this time. Im just totally dead inside now. And Im gonna be that way for a good while im thinking.