don't cry because it's over, smile because it happend
so i'm joining the big load of people who decided we hadn't updated in quite a while and we needed too
wow a lot has been going on this summer especially recently umm quick review Up north with suzio was amazing i love his family and him but his family too and just..it was such a nice break my life had gotten really hectic and then GUH CAMP yes leadership style which i thought was going to be the lamest thing ever ended up being pretty darn amazing and some of the best times ever in my life i learned so omuch and actually grew up a lot/ made a lot of friends annnd feel a ton better about this upcoming year especially student council which to be honest i was really nervous for and although i still am hee i knwo i've got some inside crew to help me out. OOH then gear went donw...for the like 2 days i was home and THEN i went up north to megans cottage i was so glad i didn't have to miss this year becuase i like havn't in forever and that was amazing also not only did i get to see my girlys i hadn't seen in forever but it was just....i feel so comfortable with all those people and i got a chance to just not worrie about gear or really be sad because i had a Brenna attached to my arm which was awesome i love little kids even though i guess she wasn't thaat little but still made me happy.
hmm so anyways biig thing or well in my eyes is that Jay and i broke up. I came home from camp actually while i was still there things were just really different but i guess i didn't think THAT much into it. To be honest i wasn't ready for our relationship to end i still loved the kid and actually had realized a lot of stuff at camp whcih made me.....realize how lucky i was i guess. But things happen people change more or less i think since i'd been gone so long he kinda realized he could get along fine without me and then probably thought about it and was like eh she's bitchy. which ya he definatly sees the worst of me or well has seen. So we were stuck where he new his feelings had changed just wasn't sure if they were going to change back and i was still head over heels for the boy. anyways he ended it and i guess everyone kinda knew it wasn't meant to be but i always had that little hope it was, which is lame and i think just a highschool girl thing. eh so i'm not goign to lie the first couple weeks were ridculously hard but uh guess who has the most amazing friends in the world ya that's right i do not you. me *unless i guess your friends are the same* Seriously everyones there 100% all the time i guess i just kind of forgot that if you don't show you need help how are they supposed to just know and well yes amazing especially like the first day i saw so many people so randomly which is just the best and everyone was just there and aww megan and gina brought cookies and cosmo which was amazing and ya.
SO i also realized to not take for granted your own friends....while i was like going out with jay i mean i still was really good about hanging out with everyone but......it just was differnt i don't think i cared as much as i should have which i now really realize. You shouldn't take anyone especially your friends for granted i realized its not only okay but usually makes someones day if you just randomly call to say hey and that you should always let people know how much they mean to you. I've become a lot better friends with people like my little ohoe actually...i kind of think everyone lately but especially her, too often i would make assumptions and just like not bother to call her or something but she was always one of my really good friends i just didn't really hang out wiht just her and i anymore and well that wasn't right and i especially k now that now i mean for everyone in my life sometimes just getting to know them a better by themselves can change your whole attitude towards them and haha ya i'm really happy now. ooh and as for jay.....i think it really did set in now that you know what we're over there isn't going to be a next time and that's okay i had some definatly amazing times with him and i'm really glad i got to know him. I'm hoping we stay friends as of now.....things seem interesting but that's okay because to be honest i'm really hurt and not sure i could handle him being around a lot he broke my trust on this one in several catagorys and although i love the kid to death i really don't think he's boyfriend material...for me that is i just need something differnt and i finally really reallized it and well i mean same for me to him. Don't get me wrong though i wouldn't take any of it back for anything and i do miss him...more than i should but i guess i'm glad its over i kinda new it was going to happen i just didn't know when. So for now i dunno in general it just feels a lot differnt from last time which is good and bad. I'm not ready to move in in the sense of like another serious relationship at this time but if something happend or someone came along great, and just kinda having fun or like dating around seems fine. I'm just ::sigh:: bad at wording things haha but ready to depend on myself again instead of a boy which i guess i didn't completely do but i did it enough.
shoot this got long lol anyways senior year i was always really afraid of coming and like never wanted this summer to end, but recently i've been excited, i really hope this year is just amazing....well i know it's going to be but i'm just not as nervous what happens happens it's somehow supposed to and you know what lets all just try and take it for what it is our last real year we get to be kids and we aren't expected to know how to make all the right decisions or know what we're doing with our lives, lets just all have a great time together everyone just...aim for not judging and accepting and just getting what you want and being happy care more than others think is wise, Risk more than others think is safe, Dream more than others think is practical AND expect more than others think is possible
let's hear it for the class of 2007
wow a lot has been going on this summer especially recently umm quick review Up north with suzio was amazing i love his family and him but his family too and just..it was such a nice break my life had gotten really hectic and then GUH CAMP yes leadership style which i thought was going to be the lamest thing ever ended up being pretty darn amazing and some of the best times ever in my life i learned so omuch and actually grew up a lot/ made a lot of friends annnd feel a ton better about this upcoming year especially student council which to be honest i was really nervous for and although i still am hee i knwo i've got some inside crew to help me out. OOH then gear went donw...for the like 2 days i was home and THEN i went up north to megans cottage i was so glad i didn't have to miss this year becuase i like havn't in forever and that was amazing also not only did i get to see my girlys i hadn't seen in forever but it was just....i feel so comfortable with all those people and i got a chance to just not worrie about gear or really be sad because i had a Brenna attached to my arm which was awesome i love little kids even though i guess she wasn't thaat little but still made me happy.
hmm so anyways biig thing or well in my eyes is that Jay and i broke up. I came home from camp actually while i was still there things were just really different but i guess i didn't think THAT much into it. To be honest i wasn't ready for our relationship to end i still loved the kid and actually had realized a lot of stuff at camp whcih made me.....realize how lucky i was i guess. But things happen people change more or less i think since i'd been gone so long he kinda realized he could get along fine without me and then probably thought about it and was like eh she's bitchy. which ya he definatly sees the worst of me or well has seen. So we were stuck where he new his feelings had changed just wasn't sure if they were going to change back and i was still head over heels for the boy. anyways he ended it and i guess everyone kinda knew it wasn't meant to be but i always had that little hope it was, which is lame and i think just a highschool girl thing. eh so i'm not goign to lie the first couple weeks were ridculously hard but uh guess who has the most amazing friends in the world ya that's right i do not you. me *unless i guess your friends are the same* Seriously everyones there 100% all the time i guess i just kind of forgot that if you don't show you need help how are they supposed to just know and well yes amazing especially like the first day i saw so many people so randomly which is just the best and everyone was just there and aww megan and gina brought cookies and cosmo which was amazing and ya.
SO i also realized to not take for granted your own friends....while i was like going out with jay i mean i still was really good about hanging out with everyone but......it just was differnt i don't think i cared as much as i should have which i now really realize. You shouldn't take anyone especially your friends for granted i realized its not only okay but usually makes someones day if you just randomly call to say hey and that you should always let people know how much they mean to you. I've become a lot better friends with people like my little ohoe actually...i kind of think everyone lately but especially her, too often i would make assumptions and just like not bother to call her or something but she was always one of my really good friends i just didn't really hang out wiht just her and i anymore and well that wasn't right and i especially k now that now i mean for everyone in my life sometimes just getting to know them a better by themselves can change your whole attitude towards them and haha ya i'm really happy now. ooh and as for jay.....i think it really did set in now that you know what we're over there isn't going to be a next time and that's okay i had some definatly amazing times with him and i'm really glad i got to know him. I'm hoping we stay friends as of now.....things seem interesting but that's okay because to be honest i'm really hurt and not sure i could handle him being around a lot he broke my trust on this one in several catagorys and although i love the kid to death i really don't think he's boyfriend material...for me that is i just need something differnt and i finally really reallized it and well i mean same for me to him. Don't get me wrong though i wouldn't take any of it back for anything and i do miss him...more than i should but i guess i'm glad its over i kinda new it was going to happen i just didn't know when. So for now i dunno in general it just feels a lot differnt from last time which is good and bad. I'm not ready to move in in the sense of like another serious relationship at this time but if something happend or someone came along great, and just kinda having fun or like dating around seems fine. I'm just ::sigh:: bad at wording things haha but ready to depend on myself again instead of a boy which i guess i didn't completely do but i did it enough.
shoot this got long lol anyways senior year i was always really afraid of coming and like never wanted this summer to end, but recently i've been excited, i really hope this year is just amazing....well i know it's going to be but i'm just not as nervous what happens happens it's somehow supposed to and you know what lets all just try and take it for what it is our last real year we get to be kids and we aren't expected to know how to make all the right decisions or know what we're doing with our lives, lets just all have a great time together everyone just...aim for not judging and accepting and just getting what you want and being happy care more than others think is wise, Risk more than others think is safe, Dream more than others think is practical AND expect more than others think is possible
let's hear it for the class of 2007