Oct 30, 2005 22:04
So i havn't updated in a while but i've been having some amazing times and wow yes amazing.
I'm so beyond happy i just feel so lucky and blessed thank you god so much, I owe you so much!
wow a ton has happend seriously liek 2 months of awesome weekends for sure and really busy weeks that sometimes seem like they'll never ever end, but life in the least is amazing and really couldn't be much better. Ah callie's 16 at last!!!! and that's what i've been doing well really since like summer when i thought of the idea about a suprise party at halloweeknds because she said she'd always wanted to go. And aww it went sweet and i'm pretty positive she had a kick ass birhtday which just makes everything way more than worth it! CALLIE AND KENNY ARE GOING OUT!!! OMG OMG OMG FINALLY lol i'm so happy for them now i can just shut the frick up and they can be happy aww yay! ooh and megan and marky are going out and Gina and Alex....and yes OH YA KATI AND I HAVE BEEN GOING OUT FOR 7 months and at cedar point jessica callie kenny and i got scared and it was awesome lol wow aww just so much awesomeness has been happening and after a way stressful week my more than spectacuar boyfriend made the weekend rock just so much I love you Jay and thank you it's exactly waht i needed. GAH i got to carve pumpkins and look at pumpkins and aren't pumpkins cute i just really like looking at all the different kinds they're just so........eeee cute hahah. i feel bad i made jay look at all of them but aww and we got pumpkin children and a really little one named fredrick who looks absolutely adorable in his car.
random thoughts if you don't care heeeey don't read:
so tonight for some reason i just.....was thinking like usual..hee you guys know me but it's a goodthinking i guess anyways better than it use to be. Life just feels right right now like like i fit into it. Like since 6th grade i havn't felt correct or my age i always have felt hey i'm in 6th grade i'm the head of the school i should be more mature a better example shouldn't be doing this i dunno it's weird. I mean just i feel 16 i guess like yes everyone knows i act kiddish and amused and just immature but I just feel like you know what no i'm not suppost to be anything i'm not....or maybe right now i just don't care it's not bothering me that i'm not the like picture imagine of a 16 year old. I have fun and have amazing friends and an amazing boyfriend. And my familys still a little iffy but whose isn't honestly. So yes life just feels completely how i picture it being like i still pictured things a lot differnt from when i was little and imagined myself 16 i mean i'm not really pretty like i thought or driving with a varsity jacket and being all prepared for college or all mature with like all A's. I'm me i care about what i look like but if one morning i can't get a glimpse in the mirror i'm okay with it because it's not that big of a deal i have amazing friends i have no idea what i want to do in life and i havn't gotten All A's or really even close haha i laugh at the most stupid/ immature things and the grossest stuff but i've realized hey it's what teenagers do. so ya done with random thoughs.......just thought everyone should know even though i'm sure like no one knew i thought other wise. I feel 16 and i like it i feel reasured for the first time in forever and not so scared even though i most likely should be baout collage and everything but i'm just not i'm just.....spectacular!