Pondering
I think the seratonin in my brain is making me crazy. I've hit the point of forgetting to eat, and not being able to sleep because I can't stop thinking.
It's annoying, because I'm tired all the time, and sometimes I realize Bam! I'm hungry, and why didn't I eat something? And yet at the same time, I love the feeling of being totally distracted to the point of walking all the way to school and not even realizing that I crossed Mackenzie. I think it's because I'm thinking of something that I really like. Daydreaming's a good time.
NOT, however, when it causes you to have to finish two assignments, one of which is a 1200 word paper for Wednesday. I totally forget... I can't take out references from the library because I have excessive fines, but I can't pay the fines because I have Jen's bridal shower present to buy, and I can't buy that if I pay my fines because I don't have enough money in my account to cover both. I also can't buy groceries because I spent all that money fixing my horn. I'll get paid back for that, but not until next week. Good times.
C'est la vie. Maybe I'll get skinny :P (joke, people... just a joke)
I think this is the only poem I've ever had a connection with. I'm using it for my final theory project I think. That'll either ruin it for me, or make it that much cooler, depending on what I do with it..... Read it, it's ironic.
Siren Song ~ Margaret Atwood
This is the one song everyone
would like to learn: the song
that is irresistible:
the song that forces men
to leap overboard in squadrons
even though they see the beached skulls
the song nobody knows
because anyone who has heard it
is dead, and the others can't remember
Shall I tell you the secret
and if I do, will you get me
out of this bird suit?
I don't enjoy it here
squatting on this island
looking picturesque and mythical
with these two feathery maniacs,
I don't enjoy singing
this trio, fatal and valuable.
I will tell the secret to you,
to you, only to you.
Come closer. This song
is a cry for help: Help me!
Only you, only you can,
you are unique
At last. Alas
it is a boring song
but it works every time.
I like it...