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I suppose I should probably update this thing. It's total and utter cahos around here. I don't think anyone really knows what's going on. The professor isn't around, Storm and John are in the medlab, Yana.....where to go with Yana I have no idea. Piotr and I haven't been talking. I don't know what to do.
I used to be able to talk to him without a problem but since him and John got in the fight and he just about Killed him....I can't talk to him anymore. I'm actually afraid of him. I'm not even afraid of Magneto. But Piotr.....I'm afraid of. I never thought that would ever be possible. To be afraid of the one you love but yet here I am afraid to even talk to him. Afraid to see him, to be held in his arms. It's not right. That's not how it's supposed to be.
Yana, I can't talk to her about this. She's happy with John I don't want to do anything to ruin her happiness. I want her happy. She shouldn't have to worry about her brother and I. That's not her job.
I guess I just feel distant from everyone for some reason. It's not right I know but I just feel sometimes like I'd be better off home in Illinois. I just don't feel like I belong anymore. I know I shouldn't and I know everyone wants me here, at least I think they do, but I don't know....I just need time to think.
Well I should go and finish the last of the physics homework I have.
I used to be able to talk to him without a problem but since him and John got in the fight and he just about Killed him....I can't talk to him anymore. I'm actually afraid of him. I'm not even afraid of Magneto. But Piotr.....I'm afraid of. I never thought that would ever be possible. To be afraid of the one you love but yet here I am afraid to even talk to him. Afraid to see him, to be held in his arms. It's not right. That's not how it's supposed to be.
Yana, I can't talk to her about this. She's happy with John I don't want to do anything to ruin her happiness. I want her happy. She shouldn't have to worry about her brother and I. That's not her job.
I guess I just feel distant from everyone for some reason. It's not right I know but I just feel sometimes like I'd be better off home in Illinois. I just don't feel like I belong anymore. I know I shouldn't and I know everyone wants me here, at least I think they do, but I don't know....I just need time to think.
Well I should go and finish the last of the physics homework I have.