you are sending
Mixed signals. That's to be expected considering your state of mind. Youre unhappy. Find your happiness and I will be here. I learned my lesson last year not to wait around. I will not repeat my own history, but you are the one I want. I have a feeling I will be seeing more of you. I know you aren't relying on me to make you happy, but I think as you search for it you will find having me as yours will only add to your happiness. If you don't, I deserve someone who will. Who will see the person I am, and not want to let me go. Baby steps my dear, but I think those steps should eventually lead us back, and together we can be happy again. I give it 3 months, then again its shit or get off the pot. What I want and what might actually happen may be different, I accept that. I accept and even expect it might never happen. I have to tell myself it is more than possible that I may never be with you again. But until its really over, for either of us, I'm not walking away. I've invested and will continue to do so. I see you in my future, but I know you are still trying to see if you see me in yours. Let's see where this goes. I think it could be amazing. If you end up being done with me completely I will know god has someone better in mind. Thanks again for bring me back to myself and opening my eyes. I feel like me again. If anything, I take away the lessons I've learned and memories of us.