no me gusta escuela.
So, today was a kick in the ass.
Of course, Wednesdays are usually rough because I have class from 11-5, where my only breaks are the time it takes me to drive from the engineering campus back to main. I'm going crazy lately though- and today it just all came together. I haven't eaten anything healthy in the past week which is making me feel like I have the flu, I had 3 big tests this week- one of which I aced, one I got a 75 on, and one I completely failed, along with the fact that I haven't seen my parents in a month & a half- and hardly get time to have a 10 minutes phone conversation with either of them anymore. Myself & 5 other kids from our physics class had a meeting with the Dean of CEAS because of our prof & the quality of our class. It's not that we hate him- he may not even be a bad teacher, but we're all failing & don't feel like we've learned ANYTHING, and all but one of us have a curriculum that relies on physics more than anything. Even if I do pass this class- I'm sure to do bad in the rest of my classes for the next couple semesters until I can teach myself physics. Not to mention the LARGE possibility that I may not even pass- which would mean I would not be able to take ANY of my engineering courses next semester. Annnd, if my GPA drops below a 3.0- I lose my scholarship. I have to figure out by Monday if I'm dropping the class- and this kills me. I had such a rough time last year when I failed Chem, even though half of our class of 200 were right there with me, but I just can't handle failure. School has NEVER come easy to me, I've had to work for every grade I've ever gotten- and I'm working SO HARD to try to get my grades up, but I'm just not getting anywhere. My grades are dopping in my other classes too because I'm spending so much time on physics and I feel like I've already put so mch work into this that I shouldn't drop it- but I think it might hurt me more to waste my time. I just don't know what to do.
I feel like I'm just starting to slip- but it doesn't make sense to me because I honestly don't even have time to do anymore studying or homework or anything- I just can't figure it out. Maybe I am just in the sophmore slump, but I want out. =\
So, I apologize for this complete whine-fest. See ya.
Of course, Wednesdays are usually rough because I have class from 11-5, where my only breaks are the time it takes me to drive from the engineering campus back to main. I'm going crazy lately though- and today it just all came together. I haven't eaten anything healthy in the past week which is making me feel like I have the flu, I had 3 big tests this week- one of which I aced, one I got a 75 on, and one I completely failed, along with the fact that I haven't seen my parents in a month & a half- and hardly get time to have a 10 minutes phone conversation with either of them anymore. Myself & 5 other kids from our physics class had a meeting with the Dean of CEAS because of our prof & the quality of our class. It's not that we hate him- he may not even be a bad teacher, but we're all failing & don't feel like we've learned ANYTHING, and all but one of us have a curriculum that relies on physics more than anything. Even if I do pass this class- I'm sure to do bad in the rest of my classes for the next couple semesters until I can teach myself physics. Not to mention the LARGE possibility that I may not even pass- which would mean I would not be able to take ANY of my engineering courses next semester. Annnd, if my GPA drops below a 3.0- I lose my scholarship. I have to figure out by Monday if I'm dropping the class- and this kills me. I had such a rough time last year when I failed Chem, even though half of our class of 200 were right there with me, but I just can't handle failure. School has NEVER come easy to me, I've had to work for every grade I've ever gotten- and I'm working SO HARD to try to get my grades up, but I'm just not getting anywhere. My grades are dopping in my other classes too because I'm spending so much time on physics and I feel like I've already put so mch work into this that I shouldn't drop it- but I think it might hurt me more to waste my time. I just don't know what to do.
I feel like I'm just starting to slip- but it doesn't make sense to me because I honestly don't even have time to do anymore studying or homework or anything- I just can't figure it out. Maybe I am just in the sophmore slump, but I want out. =\
So, I apologize for this complete whine-fest. See ya.