Last night I wore the pants I hadn't worn since March
Hello June 25th -- we meet yet again
I haven't written in so long. I haven't thought about how I feel in so long. I've been too scared to realize it and I've tried to ignore it.
The truth is I miss what left. and Im a little scared things might change for the worst. It could be better, it really could be. Or things could remain the same. Pick up where we left off, again. I still haven't forgiven him for a decision I can say I understand all day but when it comes to it I'm a little hurt. Things could be so great and they really might be but Im just waiting to see where it all goes.
Im excited for whats to come - senior year and the closing of High School. I'm ready to do it all again for the last time and say goodbye to what has been the best part of my life thus far. A little nervous about my new responsibilities and a little nervous about a certain envelope that will be arriving in the mail around December. I think it should be ok.
But what dominates my thoughts is no longer here and won't be here for a while. And ya know what I guess it really is ok. Its good for me to live for me. Its been wonderful being with my friends, especially the ones that I've known since the weee years. They're wonderful. Just missing someone for today and maybe tomorrow.
I haven't written in so long. I haven't thought about how I feel in so long. I've been too scared to realize it and I've tried to ignore it.
The truth is I miss what left. and Im a little scared things might change for the worst. It could be better, it really could be. Or things could remain the same. Pick up where we left off, again. I still haven't forgiven him for a decision I can say I understand all day but when it comes to it I'm a little hurt. Things could be so great and they really might be but Im just waiting to see where it all goes.
Im excited for whats to come - senior year and the closing of High School. I'm ready to do it all again for the last time and say goodbye to what has been the best part of my life thus far. A little nervous about my new responsibilities and a little nervous about a certain envelope that will be arriving in the mail around December. I think it should be ok.
But what dominates my thoughts is no longer here and won't be here for a while. And ya know what I guess it really is ok. Its good for me to live for me. Its been wonderful being with my friends, especially the ones that I've known since the weee years. They're wonderful. Just missing someone for today and maybe tomorrow.