life sucks
well everybody sucks and everything is fucked! life sucks so bad as of lately! sometimes i just wish i could leave this place i hate it here sometimes! u sit and think of all u're problems and how most of them are just getting bigger, then u look at other peoples lives and theres just seems so much easier and ya ask u'reself why? why me? why not someone who deserves all this shitt, im a good person i go to church im nice to people i do what i need to dont really get into trouble or anything so why me why not some one else? and theres not really an answer i dont guess just something ya gotta live w/and get over! well ya dont wanna live w/it or get over it ya just want it to all go away but ya know thats just not gonna happen. not really sure what to do, not really sure where to begin. i dont even know why im putting this in here i just needed to write something down but didnt feel like writing so this was the next best thing. not really gonna go into detail on anything cuz its not really anybody elses concern thats why i have no idea why im putiing this in here all i know is this sucks! the past 3 months have been crap nothing goes right and when it goes bad..it goes really bad! ive noticed i've slept so much lately and i think its b/c sleeping helps u forget about u're problems.lately everythng has been crappy i get madd over everything i blow the littlest things out of proporttion i cry for no reason at all, it just sucks. this is gonna sound really gay to some but i wanna get fucked up so bad, that also helps ge rid of problems cuz u dont really no whats goin on around ya when ya get like that! i think its time to start makin some serious phone calls. i need something to take my mind off things, i need a job, a hobby, something lol but i gotta go now!