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[k_is_for_kayla]

so theres this girl and we used to be really good friends, basically best friends. i felt like i could tell her everything and i assumed she could do the same with me. a few months ago this girl started going out with this guy and even though i didn't really like him, i was happy for her. she kinda stopped hanging out with us bc of this boyfriend but i still thought we were really close. then one day this boy fucked over another one of my best friends. naturally i thought my friend would stick up for my other friend, but to my surprise, she took the boy's side. i didn't really mind. i mean, i guess i was upset that she would do something like that, but that happens. then the boy didnt feel bad at all. neither did the girl. i started hating this boy even more. and the friend who got fucked over did too. a few days ago i unintentionally made a comment about this girl's boyfriend and i guess it really upset her, bc today she called me crying. we talked for almost and hour and for that hour i listened to tell me about how i was a bad friend and i just didnt understand her point. i listened, though, and apologized profusely. when i hung up, i was really calmed down, and i was happy that we had both reached an understanding. about two hours later i get a call from the friend who was fucked over. it turns out that my "friend" didn't give a shit what i had to say. she just said i was stubborn so she agreed with whatever i had to say. she had already told me that she didnt understand what i had to do with this, so when i heard this it made me wonder why she had even called me in the first place. she told the friend who got fucked over that i said shit that i never said. she refused to listen to either of us.

this might sound angry, but it isnt at all. im really hurt. when the friend who got fucked over told me what this girl said, i started crying. i really did. she was one of my best friends and to hear that she clearly did not give a shit about our friendship really hurt. this girl cares more about this boy then she does about out friendship. and whatever she wants to do, thats fine. shes one of my best friends and i really do want her to be happy. by no means to i want her to break up with this boy. and its obvious she doesnt want to either. and as much as i would love to continue this friendship, its also obvious that she has no interest in being friends with me. fuck this week.this sucks. it really does. im so hurt.