Fuck 2005!
so i am so sick of everyones shit! let me just start off with that. i am having a hard time dealing with anyone right now other than crystal, brian and kate....but kate is kinda bothering me at times too...i still love her though. i cant stand adrian or anyone that is associated with that hell hole of a town. i hope i never see anyone from there again! so i used to be friends with timmy but now i cant even talk to him without getting mad. DUDE I FUCKED UP...I KNOW...I AM SORRY! THERE IS NOTHING ELSE I CAN SAY TO YOU! i just dont know how our friendship fell apart because of stupid shit. and onto erin...i love her but things are weird now...i figured out that anytime i go on a roadtrip with anyone we are great friends for a bit them shit happens and we never talk...what the fuck! it is so weird that people from the past keep looking me up and wanting to know all about my life...i hate it, it sucks...WHAT MORE CAN I SAY! Frasier....i am over you..done! not interested...so please wuit calling me. i thought you would get the hint when i started avoiding you...i never call you back or answer when you call. its over deal with it! and onto mike, my ass of a roommate...dude i fucking hate him and thats about all i can say. he is the dumbest person i know. he gave up a great girl...miranda... for that stupid bitch amber...what the fuck...i hate her so much and her whole family, that is one fucked up family. for a while i used to wish things would go back to the way they were...now i realize that i really dont ever want that...i have moved on.
so toledo...the new place for me to land...the only thing that draws me there is crystal and brian...those two are the only ones that are holding me together and keeping me from going insane. by the way i love you both for that. i feel kinda bad that i have been so distant from everyone but if you know me at all you will realize its the best thing for everyone. i hate the holidays and i am very bitter and angry...nothing ever goes right this time of year. i wish i could just stay in toledo for christmas with brian...he is so great...he makes me feel so good about myself all the time. when i start to get mad he says something classic that makes me smile. he is by far the greatest guy i know. oh yeah fuck anyone that has anything bad to say about us! i adore him. i dont understand why people cant just be happy for me and let me make my own decisions, i mean after all it is my life.
so now what to do with my life... i dont really care right now where i end up...i just want to start over...i am so sick of the same bull shit...everywhere i go people are the same. everyone is only looking out for themselves..its hard to find true friends that are always there for you no matter what. one of the only people that has stayed close and actually cares about me and my life is claire...she still writes me from the other side of the world cause she misses me. god i miss her so much and i am ready to move over there just to be with her. i just cant stand anyone here anymore.
grand haven is not any better... i have been gone for 4 years but when i come back its the same bull shit and stupid people. i am over every guy in grand haven or around this place for that matter. i am so tired of people trying to date me from here. i dont live here so a relationship would not work. so please do me a favor and dont try. i like to come home to get away from bull shit, but when i am here i still have guys fighting over my time. fuck that i want to just relax and hang out...i am not here for a hookup.
sorry! and as far as ex's go...i am done with you...i moved on so should you. i dont care about you and your bull shit!
well i am sick of just going on when no one really cares. so MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU! i hope next year turns out to be better than this one.
so toledo...the new place for me to land...the only thing that draws me there is crystal and brian...those two are the only ones that are holding me together and keeping me from going insane. by the way i love you both for that. i feel kinda bad that i have been so distant from everyone but if you know me at all you will realize its the best thing for everyone. i hate the holidays and i am very bitter and angry...nothing ever goes right this time of year. i wish i could just stay in toledo for christmas with brian...he is so great...he makes me feel so good about myself all the time. when i start to get mad he says something classic that makes me smile. he is by far the greatest guy i know. oh yeah fuck anyone that has anything bad to say about us! i adore him. i dont understand why people cant just be happy for me and let me make my own decisions, i mean after all it is my life.
so now what to do with my life... i dont really care right now where i end up...i just want to start over...i am so sick of the same bull shit...everywhere i go people are the same. everyone is only looking out for themselves..its hard to find true friends that are always there for you no matter what. one of the only people that has stayed close and actually cares about me and my life is claire...she still writes me from the other side of the world cause she misses me. god i miss her so much and i am ready to move over there just to be with her. i just cant stand anyone here anymore.
grand haven is not any better... i have been gone for 4 years but when i come back its the same bull shit and stupid people. i am over every guy in grand haven or around this place for that matter. i am so tired of people trying to date me from here. i dont live here so a relationship would not work. so please do me a favor and dont try. i like to come home to get away from bull shit, but when i am here i still have guys fighting over my time. fuck that i want to just relax and hang out...i am not here for a hookup.
sorry! and as far as ex's go...i am done with you...i moved on so should you. i dont care about you and your bull shit!
well i am sick of just going on when no one really cares. so MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU! i hope next year turns out to be better than this one.