respect

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lately ive felt useless.......like everybodys waitin on me hand and foot. i hate that. i have to earn things. im not sure why i feel like this i mean because most people would be i dno happy about this but im not. i feel pathetic. the hole fact that my dad does everything for me doesnt help either but i dno its kinda nice sometimes. but i hate and no one understands. i wish i oculd just be normal. the hole divorce thing isnt helping either. it gets me really depressed sometimes. i dont even wanna move somedays, it feels like my whole life is being flipped upside down. i hate it. i mean i love my life but god its soooo hard. i think my moms seeing someone too. it really upsets me because my mom isnt someone elses girlfriend/wife.....shes supposed to be my dads....thats just the way it is. the fact that its only been wut 6 months doesnt help either. everythings just happening all at one time and its really hard to deal with. i dno if i can take it any longer. i try to hold everything in and not let anyone see that im hurting but one day im just gonna let it all out. i dno how or when but i know its gonna happen and i dont want it to.

i dno life sucks right now

-kay