Private to Kevinbitter_edgeJanuary 10 2004, 09:23:29 UTC
I'm not trying to sound bitter or anything, but there are very few "everyone"s in my life and I could have managed to keep track of you all without being at Hogwarts.
My holidays were very nice. I met someone new, and I passed my apparition test, and as bad as I know this sounds, and I can't believe I'm telling you because you'll likely never speak to me again now, but I didn't let Terry's death affect me too much, because you know what, he was not particularly nice to me this year.
[Private to Marietta]k_entJanuary 10 2004, 16:56:52 UTC
I'm glad you came back, anyway. And just between you and me, you know, I never really liked Terry. I hated him Probably because everyone else loved him so much.
[Private to Kevin]bitter_edgeJanuary 10 2004, 18:50:53 UTC
It's nice to know you care. I always wonder if the people I care about actually return those feelings, or if they are just humouring me. I know that sounds very untrusting, but after this last year can you blame me?
As for Terry, once I would have called him a friend. And perhaps I shouldn't have let anyones defection hurt me, but it did. I find it hard to miss hatred and cruelty.
[Private to Kevin]bitter_edgeJanuary 11 2004, 20:50:13 UTC
I would never laugh at you Kevin. I think you're a wonderful person. I even wanted to date you, once upon a time, but you wanted to just be friends, and I can understand that too.
As for Terry. It was the little things. Nothing like Ginny Weasley trying to beat me up, but a bunch of petty cruelty's that added up to something quite horrible and demoralizing... or maybe I take things too seriously.
[Private to Kevin]bitter_edgeJanuary 12 2004, 19:52:54 UTC
Really. It's okay. I don't think it would have worked anyhow. You didn't know me well, and my past obviously bothered you quite a bit. Not that I blame you for that.
And I don't think you give yourself enough credit. You're a nice, attractive, interesting person. I'm sure there are tons of girls who have fancied you.
You and Stephen are dating? I wonder how I missed that.
One of my other good friends is gay. If you are it won't bother me.
And since you told me who you're dating, I will tell you who I am dating... if you even want to know that is.
[Private to Marietta]k_entJanuary 12 2004, 20:05:12 UTC
Your past? Oh, you mean the thing with the thing. Well, a bit. But that was partly because of Michael, and then he sort of took it back, and you didn't deserve all that bollocks from people, Marietta, really you didn't.
And don't say that. Because, you know, I think you're the only one who ever did. All the other girls just give me that 'sod off' look.
We didn't tell anyone, really. Except some people noticed. Well, Adrian noticed. Michael just sort of walked in.
I'm not gay. I mean, obviously a bit, but you know, not entirely. I still fancy girls. Though not so much specifically right now. And who else is gay? I only know two people at school, and one of them's Finnigan (but everyone knows that). Except you wouldn't believe the number of blokes who'll snog another bloke anyway.
Re: [Private to Marietta]bitter_edgeJanuary 12 2004, 20:14:59 UTC
Thank you. I'm glad you think so. For a long time I thought everyone believed I deserved it. Well, except for my Slytherin friends, but most people won't give them the time of day anyhow. I think the prejudice against Slytherin house is unfounded and disgusting. Pansy is my dearest friend. She's stood by me when very few people would. Draco too. And Adrian. That isn't at all how Slytherins are purported to be.
I think that's all in your head. I can't be the only girl who noticed. You're too modest.
Walked in? On what?
I don't know if I should say. He told me, but he didn't say I could tell anyone else.
I'm dating... my boyfriend's name is George. George Weasley. And please don't tell anyone. I have a feeling my life would be very difficult indeed if his sister found out.
[Private to Marietta]k_entJanuary 13 2004, 06:39:00 UTC
George Weasley?! You're dating one of those bloody twins?! No wonder you were just going to g
Don't worry. I won't tell. I hope he's decent to you. He'd bloody better be.
And on the same note, I'd have to say yeah, Slytherins aren't as bad as everyone makes out. A bit weird. But that's okay. I don't know about Malfoy, he did sort of kill Terry's owl, and all, but Adrian's fantastic all right, and Pansy too.
Michael just walked in on -- actually it wasn't anything, it was just sitting a bit too close together, you know, and I can't believe I'm telling you this. Gossipy girl.
And fair enough, I guess. It's his business. But, is it someone at school? Because I have this theory and I wondered -- except it's not important.
[Private to Kevin]bitter_edgeJanuary 13 2004, 18:08:49 UTC
He's more than decent Kevin. He's wonderful. He makes me feel so special. He brought me flowers, and he cooked me dinner, and he asked me if he could kiss me, and...
And I can't believe I'm telling you this either. But why am I the one who's gossipy? Couldn't that be you?
What is this about Terry's owl? I'm sure there must be some mistake. I don't think Draco would do anything like that. He's only ever been wonderful to or around me.
It is someone at school, but I really shouldn't say more. Though I'd love to hear your theory.
[Private to Marietta]k_entJanuary 13 2004, 18:34:57 UTC
Well, good. Sounds like he's all right. Good luck with that, then.
Because you're a girl. Maybe I'm being a gossipy girl too.
Didn't you know? Michael told me Malfoy killed Ninja, back in the summer hols. He confessed to it and everything. Terry was right pissed off. I don't blame him, really, that's just disgusting.
It's a stupid theory. I just wondered if maybe I already knew about whoever it was. Because, you know, it seems to come up a lot these days.
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How were your hols, anyway?
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My holidays were very nice. I met someone new, and I passed my apparition test, and as bad as I know this sounds, and I can't believe I'm telling you because you'll likely never speak to me again now, but I didn't let Terry's death affect me too much, because you know what, he was not particularly nice to me this year.
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But I still miss him.
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As for Terry, once I would have called him a friend. And perhaps I shouldn't have let anyones defection hurt me, but it did. I find it hard to miss hatred and cruelty.
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Hatred and cruelty? That doesn't sound like Terry. Or maybe it does. I don't know.
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As for Terry. It was the little things. Nothing like Ginny Weasley trying to beat me up, but a bunch of petty cruelty's that added up to something quite horrible and demoralizing... or maybe I take things too seriously.
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Oh my GOD.
I'm such a fucking idiot.
Marietta? There was a reason I said that about being 'just friends'. And it wasn't anything to do with you.
Wait, is that one of those things you're going to take completely the wrong way? Bugger.
Look, the thing is that I was am was seeing someone. And it was sort of a secret so I couldn't say anything. Don't be cross, all right?
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Who were you seeing? Or can't you tell me. I won't be upset if you don't.
I... know how that is. Dating someone and not really feeling like you can tell people.
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Sorry.
Wow. That's really cool, actually. I'd started to think no girls fancied me at all. Thanks.
And it's not a secret anymore. But no-one really knows, except Michael and Neville and Adrian and Terry Anthony (I think).
It was is Stephen.
And I'm not gay, just so you know.
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And I don't think you give yourself enough credit. You're a nice, attractive, interesting person. I'm sure there are tons of girls who have fancied you.
You and Stephen are dating? I wonder how I missed that.
One of my other good friends is gay. If you are it won't bother me.
And since you told me who you're dating, I will tell you who I am dating... if you even want to know that is.
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And don't say that. Because, you know, I think you're the only one who ever did. All the other girls just give me that 'sod off' look.
We didn't tell anyone, really. Except some people noticed. Well, Adrian noticed. Michael just sort of walked in.
I'm not gay. I mean, obviously a bit, but you know, not entirely. I still fancy girls. Though not so much specifically right now. And who else is gay? I only know two people at school, and one of them's Finnigan (but everyone knows that). Except you wouldn't believe the number of blokes who'll snog another bloke anyway.
You're dating someone? Come on, then. Spill.
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I think that's all in your head. I can't be the only girl who noticed. You're too modest.
Walked in? On what?
I don't know if I should say. He told me, but he didn't say I could tell anyone else.
I'm dating... my boyfriend's name is George. George Weasley. And please don't tell anyone. I have a feeling my life would be very difficult indeed if his sister found out.
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Don't worry. I won't tell. I hope he's decent to you. He'd bloody better be.
And on the same note, I'd have to say yeah, Slytherins aren't as bad as everyone makes out. A bit weird. But that's okay. I don't know about Malfoy, he did sort of kill Terry's owl, and all, but Adrian's fantastic all right, and Pansy too.
Michael just walked in on -- actually it wasn't anything, it was just sitting a bit too close together, you know, and I can't believe I'm telling you this. Gossipy girl.
And fair enough, I guess. It's his business. But, is it someone at school? Because I have this theory and I wondered -- except it's not important.
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And I can't believe I'm telling you this either. But why am I the one who's gossipy? Couldn't that be you?
What is this about Terry's owl? I'm sure there must be some mistake. I don't think Draco would do anything like that. He's only ever been wonderful to or around me.
It is someone at school, but I really shouldn't say more. Though I'd love to hear your theory.
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Because you're a girl. Maybe I'm being a gossipy girl too.
Didn't you know? Michael told me Malfoy killed Ninja, back in the summer hols. He confessed to it and everything. Terry was right pissed off. I don't blame him, really, that's just disgusting.
It's a stupid theory. I just wondered if maybe I already knew about whoever it was. Because, you know, it seems to come up a lot these days.
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