This night's a perfect shade of dark blue....
Tonight was semi-perfect... like starting after school, things just got good. i hung out at school for awhile. we just talked like friends. he's so cool. i think i've developed a crush on him and that makes me laugh because he's the biggest dork i've ever met. YOUR MOM! and we talked about parties and college it was cool. he told me some amazing stories. he has the best stories.
then jayne and i ate apples and banana's and peanut butter. we actually planned that too. because we're just that cool. then we went with trav to the salvation armey, and i bought me 2 new shirts. one says "learn to skate". i think it's funny.
then i was supposed to go to the wrestling match.. but i basically got stoodup. and that kinda pissed me off, but it worked out for the better.
So i went to the basketball game with someone i havn't hung out with for awhile. and it was nice that we could have a conversation and everything be so cool. we're valentines now. isn't that cute.
At the basketball i got to talk to colin! i havn't talked to him in forever! and that made me happy. and he's my pimp now. because i guess im a whore. but whatev we all know it.. (jk by the way.) even if we lost the game. it was good.
thennnnnnnn.. friendlies.
it was so wierd. we got there at 9 and stayed until 12. it was like perfect. we colored pictures and then had like a deep conversation.. like those rare ones that let you see all the good in people and in life. it just made me appriciate everything right now. like things are perfect and next year.. everythings going to change. and i only have 1 1/2 more years with like all of my bestfriends. and i dont want to waste it. because as much as we say it.. were going to grow apart and things we never be the same again. and that kills me.. but its true. i guess im afraid of the future. im afraid of thinking of things that will change. i dont want anything to change. i just wish i could freeze time. and stay at friendlies forever. i just wish i could.
for the record; my senior year is going to suck. its proven. all of my friends will be at college. and eventually things will fall apart. and then im going to college. and thats when i decided that my life ends. and begins again.
poop next year is going to suck. i have a feeling im going to cry alot.
i can't think about this anymore. or im going to cry now.
kels
then jayne and i ate apples and banana's and peanut butter. we actually planned that too. because we're just that cool. then we went with trav to the salvation armey, and i bought me 2 new shirts. one says "learn to skate". i think it's funny.
then i was supposed to go to the wrestling match.. but i basically got stoodup. and that kinda pissed me off, but it worked out for the better.
So i went to the basketball game with someone i havn't hung out with for awhile. and it was nice that we could have a conversation and everything be so cool. we're valentines now. isn't that cute.
At the basketball i got to talk to colin! i havn't talked to him in forever! and that made me happy. and he's my pimp now. because i guess im a whore. but whatev we all know it.. (jk by the way.) even if we lost the game. it was good.
thennnnnnnn.. friendlies.
it was so wierd. we got there at 9 and stayed until 12. it was like perfect. we colored pictures and then had like a deep conversation.. like those rare ones that let you see all the good in people and in life. it just made me appriciate everything right now. like things are perfect and next year.. everythings going to change. and i only have 1 1/2 more years with like all of my bestfriends. and i dont want to waste it. because as much as we say it.. were going to grow apart and things we never be the same again. and that kills me.. but its true. i guess im afraid of the future. im afraid of thinking of things that will change. i dont want anything to change. i just wish i could freeze time. and stay at friendlies forever. i just wish i could.
for the record; my senior year is going to suck. its proven. all of my friends will be at college. and eventually things will fall apart. and then im going to college. and thats when i decided that my life ends. and begins again.
poop next year is going to suck. i have a feeling im going to cry alot.
i can't think about this anymore. or im going to cry now.
kels