It's Due Time

[k_dirty]

I have been postponing writing this entry for a few days now but I figure I need to. I'm sure everyone has heard what happened and I am forever changed from it. Everyday I wake up I just feel empty and throughout little points of thd day I just want to cry. The only plus of this whole thing is its helped me realize how many friends I have and how

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it gets better ...

[dumbazarok]

i haven't had a chance to talk to you since this all happened, but there are some things i've really wanted to say. i understand what you're going through, of course not completely because such a tragedy affects each person differently, but i did lose my father to cancer almost two years ago, so i have an idea. i know how difficult it is ... feeling empty, wanting to cry all the time. it's natural, losing a parent is one of the most difficult things one may ever go through, especially at such a young age. but i promise you this, kevin, it does get easier. you should cherish the time you did get to spend with her (as i'm sure you do), and try to remember all of the good things. i'd be lying if i said this won't stay with you your whole life - it will. but it won't always hurt so badly. and you know how they say everything happens for a reason? i always had a hard time believing that, but to be honest, a tragedy of this calibur actually teaches you a lot. it makes you a stronger person, it makes you more aware of what truly matters in life and what doesn't. you said so yourself, you get irritated when people complain about petty bullshit that in the longrun really doesn't even matter. i feel the same way, but you have to realize that they can't see the world you do. i've been much more appreciative of life and what i have been given ever since my father's death, i hope you will find the same thing. i'm sure you will.

i feel like this is where that song "ooooh child, things are going to get easier" should come in. i've known you for a long time, kevin. i know we don't talk too often, but i do care about you and i know that you're a strong person. you'll get through this, all in due time.

Re: it gets better ...

[k_dirty]

i had no idea if u ever want to talk i am down.