JOY! To tHE WORLd The Lord ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!
OH What a day, I feel so encouraged, motivated and loved! THis was a good day. Yay for loving rebukes and encouraging words. God is awesome if i would just get over myself i would be able to see that more clearly, and often. I mostly need many attitude checks and God is always Goood, even when we are to selfish to undertand that. I need to love people no matter what they have done to me, or what they do. I need to trust them to the extent that i trust myself, cause No one is rightouse no not one. I am the worst of all people i feel, but no we are all equally aweful, and God is still So over our heads its terribly hard to grasp! I dont have anough hope either. I do not trust God first of all to give me what i need. Im not content in any circumstance. I have much to learn! Its very exciting! I do not hope in the things of the Lord, the day of his comming. I hope more in the date of my marrage, which has never been promised to me in the first place(every one says " oh youll get married. You will have kids" but no that has never been promised.I have decided that i would try to focus(hope) on the things that Christ actualy has Promised me because all other things will not last.Maybe one day God will give me what i definantly do not deserve.What i fear i will never have. But that is selfish and ok because I have been givin an eternal salvation. Eternaty in Heaven. No pain no cryiing. No sin! Nothing weighing down. THAT is WHY i am excited! Christ has given everyone a chance at eternaty with HIM! An Eternal relationship with OUR creator!!!!! That is so exciting! Its sounds too good to be true. I think that a lot. I doubt often, although i try not to dwell on it. When i actually sit and think of how complete i feel and how much i have a purpose in life, The truth is undenyable! I have to believe! + if i didnt believe and it was the truth... At the end i go to Hell and i actually was given a choice to not be there if i had just thought outside the Box. That is what it takes to get me back when i sway to the right or left. Being a Christian is NOT Easy. But its the most fulfilling, relational, Amazingly extravagant feeling to know that no matter what i do. Christ died for me. For every stupid thing i do from day to day, that can not even be counted. I owe EVERYTHING i am to my Lord! but i give so little, and yet He still loves! AMAZING! Extremely Amazing!