things i have done since leaving the book of faces

[k_bot]

week 3

got my L

tried to repair an old friendship

learned how to make tacky tissue paper decorations

read a book

…checked my fb account when i thought no one was looking

………………urgh

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[glowing_fish]

And when you went back to FB, what was it like?

[k_bot]

magical
and dirty

….i clicked on a lllll the feeds that people posted and had so many tabs open that m computron almost set fire to itself. i read about two of the articles before i realized that i hate the things people post and that i hate how things make me feel

then i just went back to no fb and feeling lost whenever i opened my computer…checked my hotmail account….then my school board account…closed both of them…
then felt empty and lost
longing to clickety clack but with no where to tap

consumed by the sad
i was ever so slightly grateful when the children gave me a death cold
as to occupy my empty

[glowing_fish]

I find the same thing. Once I get a little flash of that red flag, I keep on wanting to go back, and focusing on other tasks gets harder.

"Is someone paying attention to me RIGHT THIS MINUTE?" and if not, than I feel that something is wrong.