Just Thinking....
This is a rambling that probably means nothing to you and you probably won't know what I am talking about...this blog is pretty much for me. sorry for the lack of entertainment =p
Every once in awhile I hear something or see something that reminds me of a previous event. For example: Today I was driving to River Falls to see Jessica and I had the radio on because I was too lazy to dig out my cds. Well anyway, the song by Jo Jo (her newest one not sure of the name) came on. It instantly reminded me of Oliver one of the kids at the facility. He came running into the office and was so excited because Jo Jo had a new song out. Everytime I hear it I laugh because he is a 19 year old thug gangster excited about a Jo Jo song.
I really miss those boys. I haven't driven by or to the facility in a long time...but everytime I do I look through the fence and at the end of the adult dividing fence you can see Stanford, the building I worked in for 3 months. Everytime I drive by I hope that I see someone walking in or out. I have no idea why and it's not like I can really tell who it would be since I am going 60mph. It's just one of those things I guess. I think about those kids a lot. I wonder if they are still there, if they have been released yet. If someone is in Dayton or if Devin got his early furlough. I wonder if Oliver is actually out for good this time or if someday I will see him in an adult prison. I wonder if Jeremy is still smelling gas (and being psychotic). I wonder if Mike is doing well in his college class or even out by now. I wonder if Deandre got his act together and stopped acting like a dumbass. I wonder if Frank's kid is ok and if he is going to take of his baby when he gets out. I also wonder if Frank ever got out of DSU. I wonder if Angelo is still cheerful and says good morning to the staff everyday. I wonder if Colton found out that Red Wing isn't fun like he thought it was. And then, I wonder if they wonder about me. If they are asking friends and relatives in prisons if they have seen me because they all know I am going to be working in the DOC somewhere.
I know none of this means anything to anyone reading this but I don't care. =p
Sometimes I go to JC Penny's here in Red Wing. I know that this is a place that level 5's from the facility get to go when it's about time for them to get out to buy clothes for their furloughs. So everytime I go there I wonder if I am going to see a facility van sitting outside. Then I wonder if there is a van sitting there if I would go in or not. As much as I miss the kids and what not seeing them in public might be a little too much. They are kids but they are criminals and they all probably know what I drive since the facilities parking lot isn't very hidden. I always seem to have a look out for those silly facility vans. I drive by the VASA home everyday when I go to work. That is one place that the facility takes kids for off-grounds. I probably sound crazy. lol. I guess the fence and the CO's were my safety net when I was there. I am half scared and have interested to go to Minneapolis, St. Paul or MOA. I know if I go to any of those places my chances of seeing a kid that was once in Red Wing will be very very high. I am not living my life scared at all. I know if any of them saw me they would either ignore me or run up to me so excited to see me not behind a fence. One or two that weren't too fond of me might say something rude or be a jerk but I am not scared that they will follow me home or rob me or anything of that nature.
Ok enough of my babbling about the facility and the kids. I guess I just miss that job and I am really sad that I haven't been able to get in with the DOC somewhere, anywhere and I am stuck at a Casino, the place I hate the most. And I am just sad that the two supervisors at the facility had to go and be ass holes and make it so I don't even want to work in Red Wing with the kids (where I really want to be) until they retire or transfer. Sigh.
Every once in awhile I hear something or see something that reminds me of a previous event. For example: Today I was driving to River Falls to see Jessica and I had the radio on because I was too lazy to dig out my cds. Well anyway, the song by Jo Jo (her newest one not sure of the name) came on. It instantly reminded me of Oliver one of the kids at the facility. He came running into the office and was so excited because Jo Jo had a new song out. Everytime I hear it I laugh because he is a 19 year old thug gangster excited about a Jo Jo song.
I really miss those boys. I haven't driven by or to the facility in a long time...but everytime I do I look through the fence and at the end of the adult dividing fence you can see Stanford, the building I worked in for 3 months. Everytime I drive by I hope that I see someone walking in or out. I have no idea why and it's not like I can really tell who it would be since I am going 60mph. It's just one of those things I guess. I think about those kids a lot. I wonder if they are still there, if they have been released yet. If someone is in Dayton or if Devin got his early furlough. I wonder if Oliver is actually out for good this time or if someday I will see him in an adult prison. I wonder if Jeremy is still smelling gas (and being psychotic). I wonder if Mike is doing well in his college class or even out by now. I wonder if Deandre got his act together and stopped acting like a dumbass. I wonder if Frank's kid is ok and if he is going to take of his baby when he gets out. I also wonder if Frank ever got out of DSU. I wonder if Angelo is still cheerful and says good morning to the staff everyday. I wonder if Colton found out that Red Wing isn't fun like he thought it was. And then, I wonder if they wonder about me. If they are asking friends and relatives in prisons if they have seen me because they all know I am going to be working in the DOC somewhere.
I know none of this means anything to anyone reading this but I don't care. =p
Sometimes I go to JC Penny's here in Red Wing. I know that this is a place that level 5's from the facility get to go when it's about time for them to get out to buy clothes for their furloughs. So everytime I go there I wonder if I am going to see a facility van sitting outside. Then I wonder if there is a van sitting there if I would go in or not. As much as I miss the kids and what not seeing them in public might be a little too much. They are kids but they are criminals and they all probably know what I drive since the facilities parking lot isn't very hidden. I always seem to have a look out for those silly facility vans. I drive by the VASA home everyday when I go to work. That is one place that the facility takes kids for off-grounds. I probably sound crazy. lol. I guess the fence and the CO's were my safety net when I was there. I am half scared and have interested to go to Minneapolis, St. Paul or MOA. I know if I go to any of those places my chances of seeing a kid that was once in Red Wing will be very very high. I am not living my life scared at all. I know if any of them saw me they would either ignore me or run up to me so excited to see me not behind a fence. One or two that weren't too fond of me might say something rude or be a jerk but I am not scared that they will follow me home or rob me or anything of that nature.
Ok enough of my babbling about the facility and the kids. I guess I just miss that job and I am really sad that I haven't been able to get in with the DOC somewhere, anywhere and I am stuck at a Casino, the place I hate the most. And I am just sad that the two supervisors at the facility had to go and be ass holes and make it so I don't even want to work in Red Wing with the kids (where I really want to be) until they retire or transfer. Sigh.