3am reflections
I wake up from a dream I can't remember--maybe good, maybe bad, it doesn't seem to matter. All that hits is the crushing reality that right, here I am in *this* life.
I think: if I hadn't made certain choices a while back I'd have so many more choices now. Guess that's true for most anybody.
I realize I am waiting for my life to improve. This sums up how I feel in every aspect of my life. But the key word is waiting. I seem pretty much wholly unable to make any changes happen myself. I feel that nothing is in my control and that apparently I have slipped off God's priority list.