A stream of consciousness, or lack thereof
i can feel my heart pound in my forehead. and at the top of my spine. so strong that i can almost hear it. there's so much i want to do to today. it's 60 friggin degrees outside. absolutely beautiful. i'm supposed to be in reno, for priscilla's graduation events. i'm supposed to be in LA , with trevor, for the wolf pack basketball game vs. ucla. but, i'm here. cooped up in my apartment. coughing and wheezing and feeling my heartbeat in my forehead. happy weekend, yessiree.
and, it's the end of the year, and i started to reflect, as i woke up this morning (11:30, yikes, after going to bed last night at 10) and watched "best year ever" on vh1. it's been a year, alright. all sorts of changes, with family and friends, school and work. and me. i've changed. i've grown. at least i hope i have.
but, on that note, i'm starting to recognize that i'm not as sharp as normal. i keep doing things and saying things that are just flatout dumb. i worry that i'm not on top of my game. i worry that i'm not doing what i'm capable of. i worry that i'm not as good as i thought i was. i need a paul mitchell moment.
and, as i type this, i've got that UCLA vs. Nevada game on tv. i just heard mark recite a famous john wooden quote. Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.
who would think that something that came out of mark fox's mouth would help me feel a little better...haha. i know that this is as cheesy (almost as Chad Bell Big Cheeze-y) as it gets, but, that John Wooden man. He's not just a famous coach. He's brilliant and he doesn't sugar coat his wisdom. Just lays it out there. Maybe I feel a little better than I thought I did, when I remember that Coach Wooden said, "Don't let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do."
Wait a sec. There's that headache again...
and, it's the end of the year, and i started to reflect, as i woke up this morning (11:30, yikes, after going to bed last night at 10) and watched "best year ever" on vh1. it's been a year, alright. all sorts of changes, with family and friends, school and work. and me. i've changed. i've grown. at least i hope i have.
but, on that note, i'm starting to recognize that i'm not as sharp as normal. i keep doing things and saying things that are just flatout dumb. i worry that i'm not on top of my game. i worry that i'm not doing what i'm capable of. i worry that i'm not as good as i thought i was. i need a paul mitchell moment.
and, as i type this, i've got that UCLA vs. Nevada game on tv. i just heard mark recite a famous john wooden quote. Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.
who would think that something that came out of mark fox's mouth would help me feel a little better...haha. i know that this is as cheesy (almost as Chad Bell Big Cheeze-y) as it gets, but, that John Wooden man. He's not just a famous coach. He's brilliant and he doesn't sugar coat his wisdom. Just lays it out there. Maybe I feel a little better than I thought I did, when I remember that Coach Wooden said, "Don't let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do."
Wait a sec. There's that headache again...