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Dear Diary,
Today is Father's Day.. not a day i enjoy too much. I mean, don't get me wrong.. I love my step dad. He has been my dad and my support all of my life, but a part of me can't help but wonder what I did wrong to make my real dad run away and stay in hiding. He thinks I'd be ashamed of him, that I wouldn't care less if he fell of the face of this planet. That's not true.. I think about him constantly.. he told me I was his late birthday present, and that he'd try his hardest to see me. What happened to those things? Not once has he called me and wished his daughter a Happy Birthday, Merry Christmas, Happy Valentine's, ANYTHING. I don't exist to him.
so anways..
I just think i'm going to write in this thing as if it were a diary.. I really don't care if you read it.. or respond because I won't respond to you. I don't think i want to use livejournal to read anyone elses anymore or to get comments. This is plainly where i'm going to write my feelings and emotions and frustrations. If you see it.. and it's talking about you.. oh well. I just won't use names.. assume away though.
So i tend to feel like people push me out of their lives.. not once did i completely cut off a friend while i had a boyfriend. NOT ONCE. Theres this thing called time management. Truth is.. people juggle having a job, boyfriend, and friends everyday. Believe me kids it's not that hard. I really truthfully don't care though, it's my last year in this shithole of a town filled with idiotic people. When people push me away like they have.. I tend to become very isolated. It doesn't bother me, if people don't want my friendship i'll keep it for someone who does. I'm sure people don't understand how I can pull of this "I don't care attitude" it's easy.. I don't care.
I love how people get angry for the stupidest bullshit. I will see who I want, I will fucking talk to I want, I will kiss/love/fuck/hug/touch/blah blah so on whomever I want. If i want to do it.. you and no army could stop me. So stop trying to make me feel bad, i'm stronger than all of my friends. I've come to realize this, people need to get some balls here. No offense at all, but ya fucking do. Also, don't ask my advice if you're not going to listen to it in the slightest bit.. then keep your questions to yourself.
I think i'm done for the day.
Until next time.. i'm sure it'll be just as angry.
Today is Father's Day.. not a day i enjoy too much. I mean, don't get me wrong.. I love my step dad. He has been my dad and my support all of my life, but a part of me can't help but wonder what I did wrong to make my real dad run away and stay in hiding. He thinks I'd be ashamed of him, that I wouldn't care less if he fell of the face of this planet. That's not true.. I think about him constantly.. he told me I was his late birthday present, and that he'd try his hardest to see me. What happened to those things? Not once has he called me and wished his daughter a Happy Birthday, Merry Christmas, Happy Valentine's, ANYTHING. I don't exist to him.
so anways..
I just think i'm going to write in this thing as if it were a diary.. I really don't care if you read it.. or respond because I won't respond to you. I don't think i want to use livejournal to read anyone elses anymore or to get comments. This is plainly where i'm going to write my feelings and emotions and frustrations. If you see it.. and it's talking about you.. oh well. I just won't use names.. assume away though.
So i tend to feel like people push me out of their lives.. not once did i completely cut off a friend while i had a boyfriend. NOT ONCE. Theres this thing called time management. Truth is.. people juggle having a job, boyfriend, and friends everyday. Believe me kids it's not that hard. I really truthfully don't care though, it's my last year in this shithole of a town filled with idiotic people. When people push me away like they have.. I tend to become very isolated. It doesn't bother me, if people don't want my friendship i'll keep it for someone who does. I'm sure people don't understand how I can pull of this "I don't care attitude" it's easy.. I don't care.
I love how people get angry for the stupidest bullshit. I will see who I want, I will fucking talk to I want, I will kiss/love/fuck/hug/touch/blah blah so on whomever I want. If i want to do it.. you and no army could stop me. So stop trying to make me feel bad, i'm stronger than all of my friends. I've come to realize this, people need to get some balls here. No offense at all, but ya fucking do. Also, don't ask my advice if you're not going to listen to it in the slightest bit.. then keep your questions to yourself.
I think i'm done for the day.
Until next time.. i'm sure it'll be just as angry.