swear to shake it up!
life is so strang.
last night was disapointing. I'm not even going to lie about this.. tuesday mike and i talked about friday and i said i might drink. i was planing on having jsut one drink. but than mike starting pressuring me. every other word was "drink" it really pissed me off. than mike said he was hurt cuase he was excited to drink with me and i wasnt drinking. it really pissed me off i dont critize him for his choices why does he have to give me shit? it really started to piss me off. if i dont want to drink i dont have to. i might drink sometime this year while at seths, but maybe not. whatver i deside its up to me, not him. even seths girlfriend came down and yelled at them. it sounded like a damn after school special... fuck them. im pissed. if mike says anything about it tomorrow when i see him for my interview i swear ill punch him.
than to make matters worse i gave betsy and her boyfriend jason a ride home and she was wayyy drunk. after it took jason and i 10 to get her out of my car she barfed for another 10. it was sick.....
than! this morning halley and i are going to hang out, im super excited cuase i havnt hung out with her in so long. well we went ot target to get laura some stuff for a care package.... and that was it. i was gone for maybe 40 mins... she had stuff she needed to do.. bull shit...
i love my weeks now that i work and am surper busy but weekends still suck ass.....
and i know this is lame cuase its been like a month, but i miss boom really really badly. he was the frist person i really felt truly comforable with. like i could be totally my self and that was what he loved. i miss not being woke up on saterdays at 9 cuase he was bored and i hadnt came to find him yet. i miss the hugs, most of all i miss the hugs. i miss the late night talks, sleeping in a field, being witht he same person pretty much 24/7, the crazy looks and the shut ups. i miss everything. i have crushed on a few boys in the past. haha... but nothing like boom. i know this is crazy but i really have just never been that close to someone before. and altough it wasnt romantic it was a intament relationship. he knows thing about me no one else in the world does and vise vera. i really miss the feeling i had while around him. this is the worst feeling in the world. but i guess i should get over it cuase im never going to see him agian... i shouldnt say that, i might see him one day, many many years from now. why couldnt he just live in michigan? or even the US of A .... man...
the idiots down stairs are palying panic way loud. they came to my door today and asked if i had been the one who had called the cops on them thuresday. i answer honestly "no i was asleep by like 9" with out even thinking... wow.. i must have looked awesome!!! IDIOT!!! haha oh well...
last night was disapointing. I'm not even going to lie about this.. tuesday mike and i talked about friday and i said i might drink. i was planing on having jsut one drink. but than mike starting pressuring me. every other word was "drink" it really pissed me off. than mike said he was hurt cuase he was excited to drink with me and i wasnt drinking. it really pissed me off i dont critize him for his choices why does he have to give me shit? it really started to piss me off. if i dont want to drink i dont have to. i might drink sometime this year while at seths, but maybe not. whatver i deside its up to me, not him. even seths girlfriend came down and yelled at them. it sounded like a damn after school special... fuck them. im pissed. if mike says anything about it tomorrow when i see him for my interview i swear ill punch him.
than to make matters worse i gave betsy and her boyfriend jason a ride home and she was wayyy drunk. after it took jason and i 10 to get her out of my car she barfed for another 10. it was sick.....
than! this morning halley and i are going to hang out, im super excited cuase i havnt hung out with her in so long. well we went ot target to get laura some stuff for a care package.... and that was it. i was gone for maybe 40 mins... she had stuff she needed to do.. bull shit...
i love my weeks now that i work and am surper busy but weekends still suck ass.....
and i know this is lame cuase its been like a month, but i miss boom really really badly. he was the frist person i really felt truly comforable with. like i could be totally my self and that was what he loved. i miss not being woke up on saterdays at 9 cuase he was bored and i hadnt came to find him yet. i miss the hugs, most of all i miss the hugs. i miss the late night talks, sleeping in a field, being witht he same person pretty much 24/7, the crazy looks and the shut ups. i miss everything. i have crushed on a few boys in the past. haha... but nothing like boom. i know this is crazy but i really have just never been that close to someone before. and altough it wasnt romantic it was a intament relationship. he knows thing about me no one else in the world does and vise vera. i really miss the feeling i had while around him. this is the worst feeling in the world. but i guess i should get over it cuase im never going to see him agian... i shouldnt say that, i might see him one day, many many years from now. why couldnt he just live in michigan? or even the US of A .... man...
the idiots down stairs are palying panic way loud. they came to my door today and asked if i had been the one who had called the cops on them thuresday. i answer honestly "no i was asleep by like 9" with out even thinking... wow.. i must have looked awesome!!! IDIOT!!! haha oh well...