I like to sleep with him, pushing in the pin
Ahh I feel so gross right now..I haven't been high in like two weeks and this stupid soberness is making me care about things. I just got a new glass bubbler and my first paycheck so I'll be back to normal by tomorrow...
I can't believe so much has happened in the past two weeks. So my best friend's ex boyfriend and me really started to like each other and just as she began to be okay with it after an unnecessary amount of drama, we kind of stopped liking each other. And it was only after that happened that his girlfriend found out, and he freaked out and started bitching at me even though I didn't do anything. And he apparently told her that it was a "one day thing" even though it was over a month of calling each other every night and flirting and him trying to kiss me once. I feel so fucking used and it isn't fun. On the bright side, I really like work. It's something I'm actually good at, because all it takes is being energetic, friendly and talkative. Oh, and being able to remember table numbers, but smoking weed makes you remember.
I tried acid last weekend, sort of. It wasn't strong enough and all that happened was I felt like I was on ecstasy, which isn't a weird feeling for me anymore, and I saw trails behind things that moved. And then the aftereffects came on and I curled up into a ball in public..it wasn't pretty.
I don't really think I like my life right now. It was pretty good for a while but the most recent guy I had sex with is obviously using me, which I wouldn't care about that much, but I feel like he doesn't respect me at all. And I don't know, things just aren't too good. See this is what happens to me when I don't smoke weed!!!
I'm really starting to like everyone at school though, I'm so glad I switched.
I can't believe so much has happened in the past two weeks. So my best friend's ex boyfriend and me really started to like each other and just as she began to be okay with it after an unnecessary amount of drama, we kind of stopped liking each other. And it was only after that happened that his girlfriend found out, and he freaked out and started bitching at me even though I didn't do anything. And he apparently told her that it was a "one day thing" even though it was over a month of calling each other every night and flirting and him trying to kiss me once. I feel so fucking used and it isn't fun. On the bright side, I really like work. It's something I'm actually good at, because all it takes is being energetic, friendly and talkative. Oh, and being able to remember table numbers, but smoking weed makes you remember.
I tried acid last weekend, sort of. It wasn't strong enough and all that happened was I felt like I was on ecstasy, which isn't a weird feeling for me anymore, and I saw trails behind things that moved. And then the aftereffects came on and I curled up into a ball in public..it wasn't pretty.
I don't really think I like my life right now. It was pretty good for a while but the most recent guy I had sex with is obviously using me, which I wouldn't care about that much, but I feel like he doesn't respect me at all. And I don't know, things just aren't too good. See this is what happens to me when I don't smoke weed!!!
I'm really starting to like everyone at school though, I'm so glad I switched.