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I want to say so much shit right now,
But I refuse to.
Im bored and I have nothing to do so I want to write about life.
Must things in this world have an ending.
Everything is going by so fucking fast.
I mean im going to High school in a few years.
Its pretty funny though that I,
14 years old, have a personality of a fucking adult.
Ive been through so much shit in my life.
Which caused me to see shit different
than a regular 9th grader.
I mean im not complaining saying my life sucks,
but sometimes I step back and look at my life at
different angles in different situations.
I dont wanna say much about my parents.
I love them and they really arent bad people,
but their choices arent so great.
no ones choices are great sometimes,
I mean look at me for instance.
Im not a virgin, im a "Pothead" to some,
Im not even very smart,
but I have some talent up there.
There is so much drama these days honestly.
Why do you think I dont talk to any one anymore,
and all I do is sit in my house?
Id rather be alone and chilled then around someone bitching.
People might think im a bitch, and I judge people to much,
or that im a smart ass.
Im actually a really mellow person but no one notices,
they just always see my bad side.
I dont mean to always show it but shit happens ya know?
I have no friends. Honestly.
I dont know who I can trust,
who will back stab me,
who will get me in trouble.
I just think of crazy shit.
Sometimes I feel better when im alone,
then with a lot of people.
I wish there were just a few people,
that have the same interests as me,
same music taste, someone I could hang out with,
and actually talk to them about anything.
But no. Its hard for me to open up with anyone
because I feel like no ones ever listening.
Another thing, what is up with people these days.
Everyone has to be either "Goth" "Emo" "Punk" "Prep" "Gangster"
There are so many people out there who try to be something their not.
Whats wrong with being yourself?
Advertisment is so overrated today.
I mean you have to be the perfect girl, or perfect guy.
You have to do what everyone else is doing just to fit in.
Example when I went up Ozzfest,
so many fucking trendy bitches up their,
I would of loved too see the chicks at warped tour.
Not to mention the guys, because they are getting just as bad.
I dont know if its just me, but I hate how almost ALL guys,
judge a chick on apperance, instead of personality and shit like that.
I mean they gotta look good but no ones perfect.
And I wish alot of people would realize that.
When you see half naked chicks on myspace,
every mans reaction to that is hell ya, you know?
But who honestly would wanna be with someone
who puts themselves out so easy.
Dont get me wrong ive done dumb shit in the past,
but I realized it, and im still living each day.
I wanan say something about all the Myspace people and Vampire freaks,
even though I have both of them, but I only use it to read comments.
I dont take it to my head, take 40 pictures of myself,
try to be number one rated person on there,
because I have more respect for myself.
Just because you met about 50 girls from over the us,
still dont mean people like you where you are.
Now im talking out of my ass so ill shut up.
Anyway...
I got drunk again, wahoo.
King Cobra makes me happy.
School is on Tuesday.
I made a plan, that if I get A's and B's,
I will buy myself a fat 20 sack.
I mean shit...you might be like "Ya thats what I thought shed buy weed"
Atleast im trying to do better, you dumb fucks.
I love weed and their aint shit you can do about it.
Fuck you if you have a problem,
im sick of everyone anyway, so your opinion does not mean shit.
But I refuse to.
Im bored and I have nothing to do so I want to write about life.
Must things in this world have an ending.
Everything is going by so fucking fast.
I mean im going to High school in a few years.
Its pretty funny though that I,
14 years old, have a personality of a fucking adult.
Ive been through so much shit in my life.
Which caused me to see shit different
than a regular 9th grader.
I mean im not complaining saying my life sucks,
but sometimes I step back and look at my life at
different angles in different situations.
I dont wanna say much about my parents.
I love them and they really arent bad people,
but their choices arent so great.
no ones choices are great sometimes,
I mean look at me for instance.
Im not a virgin, im a "Pothead" to some,
Im not even very smart,
but I have some talent up there.
There is so much drama these days honestly.
Why do you think I dont talk to any one anymore,
and all I do is sit in my house?
Id rather be alone and chilled then around someone bitching.
People might think im a bitch, and I judge people to much,
or that im a smart ass.
Im actually a really mellow person but no one notices,
they just always see my bad side.
I dont mean to always show it but shit happens ya know?
I have no friends. Honestly.
I dont know who I can trust,
who will back stab me,
who will get me in trouble.
I just think of crazy shit.
Sometimes I feel better when im alone,
then with a lot of people.
I wish there were just a few people,
that have the same interests as me,
same music taste, someone I could hang out with,
and actually talk to them about anything.
But no. Its hard for me to open up with anyone
because I feel like no ones ever listening.
Another thing, what is up with people these days.
Everyone has to be either "Goth" "Emo" "Punk" "Prep" "Gangster"
There are so many people out there who try to be something their not.
Whats wrong with being yourself?
Advertisment is so overrated today.
I mean you have to be the perfect girl, or perfect guy.
You have to do what everyone else is doing just to fit in.
Example when I went up Ozzfest,
so many fucking trendy bitches up their,
I would of loved too see the chicks at warped tour.
Not to mention the guys, because they are getting just as bad.
I dont know if its just me, but I hate how almost ALL guys,
judge a chick on apperance, instead of personality and shit like that.
I mean they gotta look good but no ones perfect.
And I wish alot of people would realize that.
When you see half naked chicks on myspace,
every mans reaction to that is hell ya, you know?
But who honestly would wanna be with someone
who puts themselves out so easy.
Dont get me wrong ive done dumb shit in the past,
but I realized it, and im still living each day.
I wanan say something about all the Myspace people and Vampire freaks,
even though I have both of them, but I only use it to read comments.
I dont take it to my head, take 40 pictures of myself,
try to be number one rated person on there,
because I have more respect for myself.
Just because you met about 50 girls from over the us,
still dont mean people like you where you are.
Now im talking out of my ass so ill shut up.
Anyway...
I got drunk again, wahoo.
King Cobra makes me happy.
School is on Tuesday.
I made a plan, that if I get A's and B's,
I will buy myself a fat 20 sack.
I mean shit...you might be like "Ya thats what I thought shed buy weed"
Atleast im trying to do better, you dumb fucks.
I love weed and their aint shit you can do about it.
Fuck you if you have a problem,
im sick of everyone anyway, so your opinion does not mean shit.