Letter to your special someone
July 28, 2010 - it was the day i received a task from my Abakads indicating that we should write letters for someone we like. i started writing it today and i just completed it. can't believe it took me a month to actually start this.
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September 1, 2010
To my special someone,
why do i like you?
what is it about you that attracts me?
actually, i don't even know how i'm going to continue this. i've got so many things to say. that all my thoughts get jumbled up. then i don't even know where to start. but i'll try my very best.
what is so special about you that i can't just stop myself from liking you? your presence in my life is the result of being lost in another world. I am an ordinary girl, who behaves indifferently sometimes, but somewhere in my heart, I always have warm feelings for you. sometimes I reveal, sometimes i don't.
as the time passes by, I try to stop and think about all the memories i have of you.
i got to do a lot of new things because of you. i compose, i sing, i dance, i get to place new instruments, i become more knowledgeable towards computers and editing, where it is music or videos. you make me want to learn another language.
at first, i didn't even notice you. i liked your group mate first, not you. your group mate is good looking, has a great voice, and four-dimensional personality.
but even so, i started to notice you, not because of how great your voice was, or how sexy you've become,
those are just bonuses. i started to notice how hardworking you are, how you always give your best in everything you do. how you always smile in front of everyone even behind cameras, how you force yourself not to cry even when tears are already threatening to fall from your coma-shaped eyes. how you try to be strong even if you're hurting deep inside. believe it or not i don't find you cute, i find you handsome. i don't think you're funny, but you still make me laugh. i hate it when you cry because i know i would cry too, even if i don't want to. i adore you too much.
i get so overwhelmed with emotions just looking at your newest picture. there was one time, when i tried not to check any news from you. you know like how the old saying goes "Out of sight, out of mind"
but that didn't have a good effect on me when i saw a video of you playing the piano. i got too emotional i cried. my family thought i've gone crazy. see what you're doing to me? i now believe in "Absence makes the heart grow fonder"
seriously, call me greasy, but that's the way i feel. and just when I think it is not possible to like you more, a second ticks off the clock, and i discover that i end up liking you more than ever before.
but even after all my crazy experiences and all my greasiness. my life has never looked as good as it’s today. i've never been as happy until i met you. and i realized just how much i'm clinging on you that it's starting to hurt. how is it that liking you can be so wonderful, and yet hurt so badly? i try to let go but do you know what it is like to feel your heart inside you, and yet not feel it beat?
there are questions that pops into my mind. questions that scare me. questions that i don't have answers for. "is this feeling more than admiration?" "do i love you?" i don't know how to answer that. and i don't even know if i ever want to answer it. because i don't want to fall deeper. because falling deeper will just make it harder for me to let you go someday.
yet, my feelings for you just continues to mature, growing beyond the realm of my heart, beyond the realm of reality. you give so freely to everyone you know in such a loving way. it just makes me fall a lot more deeper!
sometimes i even ask myself. "why do you like him? he doesn't even know you!" but still, i can't help myself.
i try to put this feeling into words, but fail miserably. This feeling of being both scared and at peace, of having anxiousness and a sense of calm, is a feeling that I have never imagined one could have at the same time. I have no other words to describe how you make me feel. No words, no actions could even come close.
all i know is that even if all the years have gone by, even if i get old and wrinkly, even if i won't be the same little girl who listens to your voice every time you sing. same little girl who giggles everytime she see's you do something stupid. same little girl who cries every time she see's you cry. same little girl who got her heart capture by you...
You will always have a special place in my heart.
I will always be here thinking about you, like I always do. I will never forget you.
You are Special to me,
kim<3
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