Hello September Funk, You've Lost Weight . . . .
I keep thinking I should write something profound seeing as how Tomorrow is the 12th. Something like "every year it sucks a little less" or "the loss seems different" but all that shit just seems trite at best.
So tomorrow is the 9 year anniversary of The Twins -
I really do wish that it wouldn't make me mope for the entire day.
I know the California group has a thing against August (or Fuck-u-ary) as it has come to be known, but I can handle whatever August throws at me. September is the month that pounds on me. We lost two pregnancies both in September, and I just seem to be down emotionally and little things seem that much bigger.
Tomorrow we will make our donation, and I think we've secured babysitting so that The Scrumptious One and I may go out. We'll remember, be sad, and then we will look at our life and be happy for what we have. We'll probably have a drink (or two) and it won't so much drown the sorrow as dull it.
I'll probably look in the keepsake box and shed a few tears in an effort to purge the feelings of loss and helplessness.
To those of you who have faced a personal loss, a glass will be raised in your honor tomorrow.
So tomorrow is the 9 year anniversary of The Twins -
I really do wish that it wouldn't make me mope for the entire day.
I know the California group has a thing against August (or Fuck-u-ary) as it has come to be known, but I can handle whatever August throws at me. September is the month that pounds on me. We lost two pregnancies both in September, and I just seem to be down emotionally and little things seem that much bigger.
Tomorrow we will make our donation, and I think we've secured babysitting so that The Scrumptious One and I may go out. We'll remember, be sad, and then we will look at our life and be happy for what we have. We'll probably have a drink (or two) and it won't so much drown the sorrow as dull it.
I'll probably look in the keepsake box and shed a few tears in an effort to purge the feelings of loss and helplessness.
To those of you who have faced a personal loss, a glass will be raised in your honor tomorrow.