May 02, 2011 13:33
I am done with the whole fucking shushing and patting crap. If I didn't have post partum, I'd probably develop it soon if I carried on down the shush-pat track.
So this is as good a day as any to abandon the softly softly method. I've changed and fed my little girl (she didn't want any more boobie) and have left her whimpering to start with since 1.10pm. She started properly crying about 7 minutes ago. But I ain't picking her up until 2pm.
I don't know if the whole CIO method is right or wrong but she needs to learn how to self-soothe. I feel cruel but she is 12 weeks old I cannot be wearing her / carrying her for all her naps ALL THE TIME. I am tired. And what if I need to return to work? Am I suppose to pay my helper to carry her for 3 hours every day?
I love you Clover, but such is life. Sometimes the best lessons are the toughest. I will never stop loving you and I am not abandoning you but this is something we both have to deal with.