And the Reason is You
I found a reason to me, to change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new.
And the reason is You
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Changmin didn't know why. Why now, why him. Why and just why.
But he had been feeling like doing it since the start of their 'Time Dome Live Tour 2013' and just as always, Tokyo Dome seemed like the perfect place to expose himself in ways he would never do in normal occasions.
Tokyo Dome was the very important place for Tohoshinki, for Yunho, for him.
So when he called the directors of the Tour along with the technical staff and the TohoDancers out for a private meeting, he confessed his little plan with a shy yet resolute expression, embarrassment floating oh his face together with a never seen before firmness.
And the people staring at him reacted in so many different ways Changmin felt dizzy at first, but he sent all of them such a sincere look that they all stopped, and agreed.
So now, after already a hour of performances, talks and changing clothes at the speed of light already three times, Changmin's heart starts to beat faster and soon after, the stage goes all dark except for a little light focused only on Yunho and him.
The next song scheduled is 'One and Only One' and the stage going dark was not something Yunho can't remember of at that point, so he starts to feel nervous, afraid that some technicals problems may have occurred in the most important stage of their Tour.
He immediately sends a questioning and a little worried look to Changmin, surprised to find the younger man only smiling, softly and nervously at the same time, while walking a little towards him.
"Today I wanted to do something special," he announces and Yunho starts to panic "So I think that for now, Yunho can just stay here looking at the stage like our fans here, okay?"
The fans go wild at that, while Yunho is just staring at Changmin in a way he can't even describe. He listens to him though, and stay still with his eyes following the younger man reaching the stage in no time.
Changmin takes a mic, closes his eyes. A melody starts to sound in the big theatre while the big screen behind gets lightened by photos and silent videos of Tohoshinki's fans, all of them, all around the world.
Yunho's entire body starts to shake.
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
Changmin can't open his eyes, feeling the fans' touched screams all through his body. He scolds them, plays with them, but he loves them. So damn much.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
At that point, the photos of their fans on the scream are replaced with a photo of Yunho, a very young Yunho, from their first days after debut. He has long dark hair and a chubby face, strange clothes on while he smiles shyly and beautifully at the camera.
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
Photos of Yunho broadcast now, together with some of the two of them together from the very start until then, until now.
Changmin feels his voice shaking a little as he restarts singing, trying to imagine the look on Yunho's face as he listens to him.
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
He starts walking on the stage, looking with teary eyes at their fans silence as he head towards Yunho on the other end of the gangway.
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
They stand right in front of one another now and Changmin's chest is almost hurting from how much his heart is beating fast, at the sight of Yunho's eyes so incredibly full of tears that wait for nothing but to fall down plentiful.
And the reason is you
There is a moment they forget about everything outside of their little world.
Yunho throws himself into Changmin's arms and holds him tight, so tight the younger feels like loosing his breath. He holds back, face resting on Yunho's shoulder and he does his best not to cry. He doesn't know if the only things he can hear are their harts beating because the Dome is actually silent or because he has been dazed by the emotions.
He is sure Yunho is wetting his shirt with tears and that simple realization brings him to hold even tighter.
When they separate Changmin can see that the Dome is really silent, so gently letting them have a very special moment to remember, and to remember all together.
It would be the second time Yunho cries on this special stage, but this time is different and everyone can see it. It's not only teary eyes because of the emotion, it's real tears falling down from that leader who had never cried before, because of his very own Changmin, and his love towards him.
He takes the mic to his mouth, still staring at the younger's gentle expression and tries to say something twice but the words die in his throat before he can even properly think.
The fans only then start to talk again, screaming his name supportively and something like a general 'You don't have to say anything, Yunho'.
This only makes Yunho even more unable to say anything. Jung Yunho is, for the first time in his whole career, speechless.
Changmin takes an arm around his should and pulls him close, so Yunho decides that things are perfect like that and nods to their comprehensive fans while his brave and strong maknae thanks everyone for their endless support and understanding.
"Let's move to the next song now." Changmin says his very own sentence and then like never before, the fans complains loudly.
Yunho only looks for his hand and holds it tight.
Their eyes meet and as the notes for 'One and Only One' starts to fill the air, Changmin's heart skips a beat.
"I love you, Changmin-ah."