The World
Ok here we go.
Lately, i've been thinking. With all the problems in the world(Genocide in Darfur, AIDS, running out of oil, climate change, etc), what are we doing about them?
Nothing. We're doing absolutely nothing, and it scares me. We're procrastinators, so we're not going to do anything about it until it's too late. Our generation has been forced to grow up faster than other generations preceding us. We're running out of oil, and we're not finding a new energy source, we're just sucking the one we have right now dry. And we're hogging it from the rest of the world. Darfur? We're not doing anything there because there's nothing there for us in return. And that's sad. Why do we need leverage to help people in need? "What's in it for me?" is the motto of this world we live in today.
I'd like to think i understand the world, being a teenager and all, but i don't. I'm only 18. What do i know about the rest of the world? I've lived in the same towns for the past 18 years. Only experienced things in these towns for that amount of time. So what can i do? I feel powerless.
I'm also afraid for my future, because i'm going to college, which leads to a career, but with the world in the state it is today, what am i going to choose? Back in the day, all you had to think about is what career you wanted to do. Now you need to think: is it environmentally friendly? I have to choose something environmentally friendly. I want to be a musician, but i don't think i'll be able to be one because when you use electricity(i.e guitars and amps and turn tables) you use oil. So i'll have to choose a job thats good for the environment. which is ok, but i don't want to end up with a crappy job that i hate.
i want to do what i love.
Music. I live it, i breathe it, it goes through my ears, it pumps through my veins, through my heart, to my lungs, and out my mouth, in my brain, to my hands, my feet, it's in my very soul now. it's a part of me, and a part i'm not willing to let go of. No, i won't let go. I can't. Without it, what do i have? Nothing. Without it, the world to me is a boring place. A place without color.
Sure i like English and Psychology/Sociology and Comedy, but without music, what do i do? Yeah, there's art which paints the world in various shades of color to describe feelings, a person, etc. writing which describes thoughts, emotions, states of mind, a lover, a lost brother, etc. And music which allows our ears to listen to stories told by the notes written on the page. The last one i need, its the only way i can express myself. Writing and art, as much as i like them, are too obvious. I can't write my feelings down easily. Because then if people see it, they know. And i don't want everyone to know. I don't know. It's complicated. Same with art.
I guess i needed to get this out. And i rambled a bit. Oh well.
Lately, i've been thinking. With all the problems in the world(Genocide in Darfur, AIDS, running out of oil, climate change, etc), what are we doing about them?
Nothing. We're doing absolutely nothing, and it scares me. We're procrastinators, so we're not going to do anything about it until it's too late. Our generation has been forced to grow up faster than other generations preceding us. We're running out of oil, and we're not finding a new energy source, we're just sucking the one we have right now dry. And we're hogging it from the rest of the world. Darfur? We're not doing anything there because there's nothing there for us in return. And that's sad. Why do we need leverage to help people in need? "What's in it for me?" is the motto of this world we live in today.
I'd like to think i understand the world, being a teenager and all, but i don't. I'm only 18. What do i know about the rest of the world? I've lived in the same towns for the past 18 years. Only experienced things in these towns for that amount of time. So what can i do? I feel powerless.
I'm also afraid for my future, because i'm going to college, which leads to a career, but with the world in the state it is today, what am i going to choose? Back in the day, all you had to think about is what career you wanted to do. Now you need to think: is it environmentally friendly? I have to choose something environmentally friendly. I want to be a musician, but i don't think i'll be able to be one because when you use electricity(i.e guitars and amps and turn tables) you use oil. So i'll have to choose a job thats good for the environment. which is ok, but i don't want to end up with a crappy job that i hate.
i want to do what i love.
Music. I live it, i breathe it, it goes through my ears, it pumps through my veins, through my heart, to my lungs, and out my mouth, in my brain, to my hands, my feet, it's in my very soul now. it's a part of me, and a part i'm not willing to let go of. No, i won't let go. I can't. Without it, what do i have? Nothing. Without it, the world to me is a boring place. A place without color.
Sure i like English and Psychology/Sociology and Comedy, but without music, what do i do? Yeah, there's art which paints the world in various shades of color to describe feelings, a person, etc. writing which describes thoughts, emotions, states of mind, a lover, a lost brother, etc. And music which allows our ears to listen to stories told by the notes written on the page. The last one i need, its the only way i can express myself. Writing and art, as much as i like them, are too obvious. I can't write my feelings down easily. Because then if people see it, they know. And i don't want everyone to know. I don't know. It's complicated. Same with art.
I guess i needed to get this out. And i rambled a bit. Oh well.