Some things in this world you just can't change..some things you can't see until it gets too late..

[jynxxmecrazy]

I'm actually okay today.....probably cause I didn't have to go to work today...I've been doing absolutely nothing all day....it's nice...

I went home and did some volunteer hours at the hospital the other day...stayed the night...it was nice..

I'm in a dilemma...When I go home..I go home to get away...to rest...to get a away from all my stress here...but as soon as I get into town...there's still something there...pulling at me..making me tense...and I know exactly what it is....I need to see her...and her baby........I just need closure..I don't have any....and it's hard and it sucks...it's not that I'm still in love...because I'm not...but something in me still holds onto her...maybe because I'm not completely over her....and I still hold onto the fact that she makes me feel better when I'm at my lowest...and a lot of it is because I haven't found someone to make me feel that way about them....I don't know...I just need to see her and the baby...it'll give me closure..
But I called her when I was home.......and her cell phone's been cut off......so I don't know what I'm supposed to do.......

I guess if it's meant for me to see her...then I'll run into her...somewhere...

Hand over my heart, gun to my head
I swear to God I'm through with this

.......I am the worst liar I know

Well...I'm gonna watch the Wizard of Oz