"The course of true love never did run smooth." Wm Shakespeare
Alright, so outside of wanting to kill at LEAST two people living in my house right now, I also have the issue of relationship stuff to deal with. I WAS perfectly content being single and not thinking twice about getting a girlfriend. I WAS faring well by simply wasting my time with friends. However, for some peculiar reason, I listened to Joe and pursued a love interest. From the way Joe made it seem, it was going to be clear sailing and nothing but peaches and cream. So with this concept in my head, I went along and developed a serious interest in this girl. Did things go according to plan? Better yet, do they ever?! NO. So now she's saying something about wanting time. She wants time alone, even though she apparently likes me. Does this make sense to anyone else? Didn't think so. This is EXACTLY the same thing that happened when I had an interest in Lindsay Rossi. Before she was dirty folks... way before the Dustin Hobbs influence, OK? Right. So anyway, it turned out where "neededing time" actually meant "I don't want to be with you, I'm going to find someone else". I don't think that things will go that way this time, but there are other fears I harbor... Take for instance; what happened to Erin and me. Brief interest in each other the first few times we hung out, and then she all of a sudden thought we were "too good of friends". Despite our "close" friendship though, she still managed to go out with FUCKING DAVE, knowing that I liked her. Goddammit I hate that moron with a passion of a thousand eternally burning suns... If he's not out of my house soon, I'm going to have to kill him. Anyway though, I'm beginning to have doubts that this relationship thing is going to work out. I'm not going through another Lindsay situation, and the FUCK if I'm going through what I went through with Erin. This time has to work nicely. She needs to make up her F'ing mind, realize that I've been through this shit a bit TOO often, understand that there is a great possibility for good, and TAKE THE CHANCE. If it doesn't happen in sufficient time, I'm moving on with my life, and most likely giving up on love, girls, guys, hetero AND homosexuality, and the existence of hapiness in the presence of another "significant" person in one's life. I'm tired of dealing with issues like this, and this is the last straw. I swear on everything Holy, Unholy, or otherwise that if this doesn't work out, I'm going to become a hermit and remain ASEXUAL for all of my life. So... All that read this, wish me luck.
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