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alllllriiiight.. soo life update time..
Right now I'm chilling, drinking a beer, enjoy the sauna that is my room (the sun shines directly in my window and heats things up a lot..), and listening to some great music. Finals are coming up quick and I got a bit of work done.. not enough to feel accomplished but enough to not be overwhelmed with guilt. I'm pretty tired because I didn't go to bed till 3 am last night and then woke up earlier than intended because of the sun coming in my window. Womp womp. I might nap before work or something. Considering work could last till 4 am, it might be wise.
So yeah, I'm not as stressed about finals as I should be. Probably cause my first one isn't till the 18th, and that's my easiest. Then I have more test fun the 23, 24, 25, and 29. So there will be a period of hell but I still have some time before that. I gotta get crackin tho so I can do well and all that jazz. After exams I need to start working a lot and making some sweet cash, man, so that I can afford living the high life in London. No Ottawa/CP for me this summer! Tonight I am going into my new job flipping burgers for training. There's actually a ton to learn and I'm quite intimidated. I hate starting new jobs. This one is really stressin me out. I need to chill. Stupid fast food job. Fuck. But yeah, it's close to my house and I can get a lot of hours so it could be good.. I just want to know everything.. not go through this awkward learning situation. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN I suck. I am sooo awkward even tho I KNOW if I just relax everything will be cool. yet I still am a retard. ROIGHT.
Okay I need to stop thinking about that... need to stop fixating..
Aside from that I'm getting really excited about the niiiice weather and about summer other than the new job stress. I've been pretty happy and positive for an abnormally long time and the last few days I've been getting negative cognitively, which I REALLY don't want to get into. It's normal to get cranky and down every now and then but I would much prefer to avoid that.. dealing with life is so much easier when you have a positive outlook. So I'm trying not to let myself get myself down.. lol.. yeah.. it make sense in my head.
I can't wait till the summer when time when I'm not working is MY time to do whatever I want, without any guilt from avoiding schoolwork hanging over my head. I need to start painting again. I've been really craving it. Especially when I get warm I can sit outside in the sunshine and be artsy fartsy.. it'll be fab, I tells ya.
Right now I'm chilling, drinking a beer, enjoy the sauna that is my room (the sun shines directly in my window and heats things up a lot..), and listening to some great music. Finals are coming up quick and I got a bit of work done.. not enough to feel accomplished but enough to not be overwhelmed with guilt. I'm pretty tired because I didn't go to bed till 3 am last night and then woke up earlier than intended because of the sun coming in my window. Womp womp. I might nap before work or something. Considering work could last till 4 am, it might be wise.
So yeah, I'm not as stressed about finals as I should be. Probably cause my first one isn't till the 18th, and that's my easiest. Then I have more test fun the 23, 24, 25, and 29. So there will be a period of hell but I still have some time before that. I gotta get crackin tho so I can do well and all that jazz. After exams I need to start working a lot and making some sweet cash, man, so that I can afford living the high life in London. No Ottawa/CP for me this summer! Tonight I am going into my new job flipping burgers for training. There's actually a ton to learn and I'm quite intimidated. I hate starting new jobs. This one is really stressin me out. I need to chill. Stupid fast food job. Fuck. But yeah, it's close to my house and I can get a lot of hours so it could be good.. I just want to know everything.. not go through this awkward learning situation. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN I suck. I am sooo awkward even tho I KNOW if I just relax everything will be cool. yet I still am a retard. ROIGHT.
Okay I need to stop thinking about that... need to stop fixating..
Aside from that I'm getting really excited about the niiiice weather and about summer other than the new job stress. I've been pretty happy and positive for an abnormally long time and the last few days I've been getting negative cognitively, which I REALLY don't want to get into. It's normal to get cranky and down every now and then but I would much prefer to avoid that.. dealing with life is so much easier when you have a positive outlook. So I'm trying not to let myself get myself down.. lol.. yeah.. it make sense in my head.
I can't wait till the summer when time when I'm not working is MY time to do whatever I want, without any guilt from avoiding schoolwork hanging over my head. I need to start painting again. I've been really craving it. Especially when I get warm I can sit outside in the sunshine and be artsy fartsy.. it'll be fab, I tells ya.