My Own Happiness
I'm discovering that I'm a highly sociable person. I find it hard not to interact with people. Not doing so makes me feel as if something's lacking. I guess that is also the reason why I prefer doing almost everything with someone - from having dinner to having my hair treated at a salon. It's not surprising therefore that I almost always turn to my boyfriend for company. Whenever I feel like going out, he's the first person I ask (aside from my immediate family).
This weekend, I want to watch the Pyromusical Competition at SM MOA and visit Logos Hope, the biggest floating bookstore currently docked at Pier 15, Manila Harbor. I already asked my family and apparently they're booked for the weekend already. Stef has her gimmicks with her barkada while Meggie is resting from school. Mom, on the other hand, has her Soroptimist responsibilities. I was asking Aaron to accompany me as well but he's busy reviewing for his exams next week.
Having been rejected by all of them made me feel really sad and lonely. I badly want to do all those activities I mentioned, but I want to do them with someone. I don't think I could do all those things on my own. I don't know if what I'm feeling is right. Maybe it's wrong for me to rely too much on others when it comes to having fun. Maybe I should learn to enjoy life on my own. Whether Aaron or my family is with me or not, maybe I should just do what I want to do and enjoy it.
Of course, I still wouldn't say "no" to someone who will offer to bring me to all those places. (I miss my dad. He used to bring me to those before, even if it were just the two of us.)
This weekend, I want to watch the Pyromusical Competition at SM MOA and visit Logos Hope, the biggest floating bookstore currently docked at Pier 15, Manila Harbor. I already asked my family and apparently they're booked for the weekend already. Stef has her gimmicks with her barkada while Meggie is resting from school. Mom, on the other hand, has her Soroptimist responsibilities. I was asking Aaron to accompany me as well but he's busy reviewing for his exams next week.
Having been rejected by all of them made me feel really sad and lonely. I badly want to do all those activities I mentioned, but I want to do them with someone. I don't think I could do all those things on my own. I don't know if what I'm feeling is right. Maybe it's wrong for me to rely too much on others when it comes to having fun. Maybe I should learn to enjoy life on my own. Whether Aaron or my family is with me or not, maybe I should just do what I want to do and enjoy it.
Of course, I still wouldn't say "no" to someone who will offer to bring me to all those places. (I miss my dad. He used to bring me to those before, even if it were just the two of us.)