the darker side of me.

[jybeliever]

It's a good thing I walked away when I did.
It's a good thing that she didn't say anything directly to me.
It's not a good thing that I was clenching the knife in my hand.
It's not a good thing that I knew exactly what I would do with it if it came down to it.
It's a good thing I have a song that I can play really loud to drown them out.

It's not a good thing that I am still shaking from anger.
I need another outlet for it and I know what that would be, but I don't know if I should.

even weed won't help this situation right now.

people are always surprised t how violent I am/can be. But it's always been there. It's like a blind rage when it comes out.
but whatever.