Jul 28, 2010 21:48
I don't have anything to write, but I just kinda wanna write something and I am too lazy to actually write in my real journal with a pen. Cause my mind moves too fast and my hand can't keep up and then I don't realize this fact and then when I re-read the entry later, I'm all, "the fuck was I talking about?"
you know in movies when some guy gets engaged and then all the people you know ask you, "omg are you okay" when you find out. And it does affect you a bit, but you don't want to admit to it, but you can't even tell anyone or else you know they'll be all, "hmm, she's so fucking jealous." so you just deny and deny.
I was thinking about that today and wondering if it would ever happen to me.
Can't stop listening to the Ramones and Jimmy Eat World.
don't know what I would do without music.
this summer is not great so far. the past couple days have been great, but all around, it's just not what I wanted it to be. I blame me though because I could have made it better. but nah, I decided to keep with old patterns and shit. Oh well.
starting to think that New York in the fall might not happen. I just want to pay off bills first and then concentrate on trips and moving and all of that. I just need a job that pays well. A job that pays basically.
I'm think I'm hanging on a string with the copy center. Not like, they are going to fire me, but just I'm gonna walk away. but where the fuck would I go?
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