what a week
I haven't been able to catch my breath this week...
Last Thursday (10 days ago) I was in a car accident that resulted in my van being totalled. I was going straight in the lane closest to the curb, the left two lanes were backed up for block and blocks. The left two lanes left a gap for a vehicle traveling in the opposite direction to cut across and into an approach to a business. SOOO a large titan truck did just that, cutting across the two backed up lanes and my clear lane...it couldn't see me and I couldn't see it until it's nose was out in my lane. I slammed on the brakes but in the rain it wasn't quick enough and I hit it at about 30 miles an hour. The other driver was given a ticket on site for wreckless turning. both front air bags went off, which was SCARY. I injured my arms, am sore, and having dizzy spells still. My left wrist is sprained and hurts quite a bit. I go in on Tuesday to have it re-examined and set up some physical therapy. I spent my days off recovering, feeling pretty shaky and just resting.
I ended up replacing the van with a honda pilot which I love driving already...it sits up high and feels safe. B is trading in the aveo as well, I have always felt it was toooo small but he is finally agreeing with me so we are trading it in on something.
On Thursday (4 days ago)I found out that I didn't get a job that I wanted. I was dissapointed but it's not as if I don't have a job that I do generally like. I am going to be looking a bit more for something more though.
This next part is a big brain dump...feel free to skip
On Thursday (4 days ago) I walked into work to have both Miguel and garrett tell me that BOb was looking for me and to find him right away (bob is the store manager). It's not unusual that he wants to check in if something weird is going on in the store, but for several people to mention it to me made me pretty curious.
I checked in and walked over to his office, Ana was just coming out of the vault and put her arm around me and asked if Bob had found me yet. I started to get a little freaked out and asked he what the hell was going on. She said, "he needs to talk to you about Mike". Mike and I have worked together for 3 years, he worked pack down but got injured (not on the job) so worked as a cashier where we got to be friends and then he moved into the schedulers job, we spent a lot of time together, on breaks, had lunch together sometimes and he'd sit in my car bitching about how bad his job was, I'd sit in his office on the floor and bitch about how bad my job was. We were friends, rumors flew that we were more because we spent a lot of time together and Mike was a loner so didn't spend a lot of time with anyone else at HD. We were not having an affair, I would not cheat on my husband. Barry knew of Mike's and my friendship, he teased me by calling him my work boyfriend. Mike was sick, he was having radiation and lots of different medications thrown at him in the last 6 weeks (radiation on his thyroid) but so far (to my knowledge) they had not said it was cancer.
Wednesday night Mike killed himself.
Bob came around the corner as Ana was telling me, he opened suzies office and had me sit down while he tried to explain how they found out and what he knew so far. He said that when he told Suzie this morning and talked to Scott, mikes new supervisor, he asked who he should make sure to tell before the rumors started flying and the person they said to find was me, that everyone else could be told quietly and whenever or as they came in, but that Bob needed to find me and should perhaps call me at home to tell me. I sat in my boss' office and completely melted down. I just sat and cried for about half an hour. All through the shift I couldn't concentrate, I spent much of it in tears. I had to explain to most of my cashiers because they would ask me if the rumors were true. But there were lots of people who were so good to me, who came up and gave me hugs throughout the night so I would have some support to make it through. My lovely husband came and sat with me for awhile...he said if anyone should comfort me over my work boyfriend's death it should be my husband. I am married to a good man.
Friday was a little easier because enough people knew that I wasn't getting constantly bombarded with questions...but man it hurts. I have spent a lot of time obsessing about how I could have reached out more, how I could have done something, when, really, there was nothing to do. He was done. But I am going to miss my friend Mike.
I am so glad for a break, I have tomorrow off and I won't have to see anyone from work or hear anymore rumors or deal.
joycelyn
Last Thursday (10 days ago) I was in a car accident that resulted in my van being totalled. I was going straight in the lane closest to the curb, the left two lanes were backed up for block and blocks. The left two lanes left a gap for a vehicle traveling in the opposite direction to cut across and into an approach to a business. SOOO a large titan truck did just that, cutting across the two backed up lanes and my clear lane...it couldn't see me and I couldn't see it until it's nose was out in my lane. I slammed on the brakes but in the rain it wasn't quick enough and I hit it at about 30 miles an hour. The other driver was given a ticket on site for wreckless turning. both front air bags went off, which was SCARY. I injured my arms, am sore, and having dizzy spells still. My left wrist is sprained and hurts quite a bit. I go in on Tuesday to have it re-examined and set up some physical therapy. I spent my days off recovering, feeling pretty shaky and just resting.
I ended up replacing the van with a honda pilot which I love driving already...it sits up high and feels safe. B is trading in the aveo as well, I have always felt it was toooo small but he is finally agreeing with me so we are trading it in on something.
On Thursday (4 days ago)I found out that I didn't get a job that I wanted. I was dissapointed but it's not as if I don't have a job that I do generally like. I am going to be looking a bit more for something more though.
This next part is a big brain dump...feel free to skip
On Thursday (4 days ago) I walked into work to have both Miguel and garrett tell me that BOb was looking for me and to find him right away (bob is the store manager). It's not unusual that he wants to check in if something weird is going on in the store, but for several people to mention it to me made me pretty curious.
I checked in and walked over to his office, Ana was just coming out of the vault and put her arm around me and asked if Bob had found me yet. I started to get a little freaked out and asked he what the hell was going on. She said, "he needs to talk to you about Mike". Mike and I have worked together for 3 years, he worked pack down but got injured (not on the job) so worked as a cashier where we got to be friends and then he moved into the schedulers job, we spent a lot of time together, on breaks, had lunch together sometimes and he'd sit in my car bitching about how bad his job was, I'd sit in his office on the floor and bitch about how bad my job was. We were friends, rumors flew that we were more because we spent a lot of time together and Mike was a loner so didn't spend a lot of time with anyone else at HD. We were not having an affair, I would not cheat on my husband. Barry knew of Mike's and my friendship, he teased me by calling him my work boyfriend. Mike was sick, he was having radiation and lots of different medications thrown at him in the last 6 weeks (radiation on his thyroid) but so far (to my knowledge) they had not said it was cancer.
Wednesday night Mike killed himself.
Bob came around the corner as Ana was telling me, he opened suzies office and had me sit down while he tried to explain how they found out and what he knew so far. He said that when he told Suzie this morning and talked to Scott, mikes new supervisor, he asked who he should make sure to tell before the rumors started flying and the person they said to find was me, that everyone else could be told quietly and whenever or as they came in, but that Bob needed to find me and should perhaps call me at home to tell me. I sat in my boss' office and completely melted down. I just sat and cried for about half an hour. All through the shift I couldn't concentrate, I spent much of it in tears. I had to explain to most of my cashiers because they would ask me if the rumors were true. But there were lots of people who were so good to me, who came up and gave me hugs throughout the night so I would have some support to make it through. My lovely husband came and sat with me for awhile...he said if anyone should comfort me over my work boyfriend's death it should be my husband. I am married to a good man.
Friday was a little easier because enough people knew that I wasn't getting constantly bombarded with questions...but man it hurts. I have spent a lot of time obsessing about how I could have reached out more, how I could have done something, when, really, there was nothing to do. He was done. But I am going to miss my friend Mike.
I am so glad for a break, I have tomorrow off and I won't have to see anyone from work or hear anymore rumors or deal.
joycelyn