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[jwhtewolfd]

All the hateful words,
All the cruel things I hear,
The more I cry, the more I weep,
The more I shed the tears.

You don't know what I'm going through,
You don't feel what I feel.
It may seem a childish game,
But my pain is real.

Your attempts to tame my twisted soul
Have failed again and again.
You can't change me though you try,
When all you bring is pain.

Oftentimes you like to act
like everything is fine,
But all the things you've said and done
I can't put out my mind.

I've not know love nor trust
For so many years.
All that's left inside my heart
Is hate and hurt and tears.

A smile will never grace my face,
I've no reason for one.
Scars aplenty grace my soul
From all the things you've done.

You don't pretend to love me,
I don't pretend to care,
But still the grief that's filling me
Is far too much to bear.

You ignore my fragile emotions,
My worries and my fears.
It pains me so to see you laugh
At my anguished tears.

When you ask what's wrong with me,
I don't know whether to laugh or cry.
Can you possibly so blind
As to how I feel inside?

Hasn't anyone ever hurt you so,
Your emotions just run dry?
Haven't you ever cried so hard,
There were no tears left to cry?

There's an emptiness inside of me
I cannot seem to fill.
To just hang on, to just survive
Takes all my strength and will.

My will begins to weaken,
My strength begins to fade.
Suddenly my mind is clear
As I reach for the blade.