Venting my feelings
I have been kinda down the last few days or actually I think its been longer, but trying to ignore it. The past 2 days it seems all I have done is cry, which gets me upset, because I hate to cry unless I have a good reason.
I have done so much thinking lately and have felt so lonely and alone, its been 2 1/2 yrs since I have been in a real relationship, I have dated here and there but nothing solid. ic these people who jump in and out of one so much and they say just take the chance, but I dont know if I really want to hop in and out of a relationship, just to have one for a month or two.
I think about having a real longterm relationship lasting longer and even one day marriage, maybe i am kidding myself, some people like to think so, but I guess u can say thats my dream.
Sometimes you can look at the past because you see no future, i guess sometimes thats how I feel, not sure if there is a future for relationship, love, or even accomplishing things I want. I know i will make it over this hump in life, I have made it through alot worse, but I figure with age the pain would be less, i guess I fooled myself.
I have done so much thinking lately and have felt so lonely and alone, its been 2 1/2 yrs since I have been in a real relationship, I have dated here and there but nothing solid. ic these people who jump in and out of one so much and they say just take the chance, but I dont know if I really want to hop in and out of a relationship, just to have one for a month or two.
I think about having a real longterm relationship lasting longer and even one day marriage, maybe i am kidding myself, some people like to think so, but I guess u can say thats my dream.
Sometimes you can look at the past because you see no future, i guess sometimes thats how I feel, not sure if there is a future for relationship, love, or even accomplishing things I want. I know i will make it over this hump in life, I have made it through alot worse, but I figure with age the pain would be less, i guess I fooled myself.