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"I've given you all that I can, anything more and I'll have absolutely nothing for myself"
I just don't understand. How can living together and sharing a life take everything away from you? I mean it's not like I'd want to be with her 24/7. We can get away from one another when needed and shit like that. I guess it's like every other time in my life, things get close and then they get taken away. I think this new in love James that I've become isn't me. I think I was happier alone, doing the music thing, hanging out with my friends when I wanted and dating many different girls. Fuck love. Fuck wanting to get married again and be a family. Fuck trusting that things will be okay. Fuck the pain I feel. And fuck the fact that I've spent one more night needing to hold someone.
I think I'll just take a six pack and a bottle of JD and crawl under the rock of life and stay there.
I just don't understand. How can living together and sharing a life take everything away from you? I mean it's not like I'd want to be with her 24/7. We can get away from one another when needed and shit like that. I guess it's like every other time in my life, things get close and then they get taken away. I think this new in love James that I've become isn't me. I think I was happier alone, doing the music thing, hanging out with my friends when I wanted and dating many different girls. Fuck love. Fuck wanting to get married again and be a family. Fuck trusting that things will be okay. Fuck the pain I feel. And fuck the fact that I've spent one more night needing to hold someone.
I think I'll just take a six pack and a bottle of JD and crawl under the rock of life and stay there.