A warning sign that came back to haunt you...
This is kind of wierd. I didn't know people still used this, i kind of just stopped. I don't really know why...there wasn't really a reason. It just kinda happened. I have missed my lj though, is that odd? I dont' know...it seems so much easier then going up to someone and being like hey can i spill my guts to you?
Well right now i've just been hit with a sad wave. I get them often lately, i dont' know what it is. I think it might be stress just building up and then other things. I think i might have a heart attack or stroke soon. I think i'm wearing out my body and mind. I think lots of things i suppose.
I dislike model un. And i don't understand why i rant about it so much, because it doesn't do anything. If anything it just takes up more time that i could've been wasting actually getting the shit done.
I feel like the smallest doll in one of those things that have the doll inside of a doll inside of a doll...whatever they're called. I guess i could explain. On the outside of me there are many others who are close to me. But on the inside i am alone, and there is nothing. I dont' know there are so many mixed emotions in my head lately. But i listen to my bummer mix, and those kind of songs a lot more lately.
I should probably go finish my homework and quit bitching for the moment. I don't know, i feel like there is stuff on my chest or on my mind that i just need to get out, but there is nobody who i feel like i trust enough to talk to about, or i feel like i want to talk to about. I don't know really. This is why i get so confused. I need to be a better person though. I will work on it
Goodnight Moon
Well right now i've just been hit with a sad wave. I get them often lately, i dont' know what it is. I think it might be stress just building up and then other things. I think i might have a heart attack or stroke soon. I think i'm wearing out my body and mind. I think lots of things i suppose.
I dislike model un. And i don't understand why i rant about it so much, because it doesn't do anything. If anything it just takes up more time that i could've been wasting actually getting the shit done.
I feel like the smallest doll in one of those things that have the doll inside of a doll inside of a doll...whatever they're called. I guess i could explain. On the outside of me there are many others who are close to me. But on the inside i am alone, and there is nothing. I dont' know there are so many mixed emotions in my head lately. But i listen to my bummer mix, and those kind of songs a lot more lately.
I should probably go finish my homework and quit bitching for the moment. I don't know, i feel like there is stuff on my chest or on my mind that i just need to get out, but there is nobody who i feel like i trust enough to talk to about, or i feel like i want to talk to about. I don't know really. This is why i get so confused. I need to be a better person though. I will work on it
Goodnight Moon