I hate double edged swords!!!!!
I'm going to see Maroon 5 this Friday (they're actually playing HERE), and my aunt was saying I couldn't go by myself. At first, I thought it was more like a request, but then I said that I was pretty sure I was going by myself, because I know my friends, and they're all going to want to go out to the clubs afterward, and I have to get MEAN bitchy to get out of it and say, "I DON'T feel like getting drunk tonight. I just want to go home." And then everyone's looking at me like I need anti-depressants or something, and I'm suddenly the bitch for the night. So I figured I could avoid all that if I just went alone. Yes, I'm one of those weird people who can go to the movies by themselves, and be perfectly fine. And I know I don't have to get drunk with them, but seriously. How fun is it when everyone's plastered around you, and you're stone sober? And guess who ends up babysitting? Yeah. My grandma's been really sick lately, so I haven't been in a partying mood, but I LOVE concerts, and this would be such an awesome thing to go do for about 2 hours. Just me singing off key to songs I love, knowing it's perfectly okay because Adam Levine's IN TUNE singing will just drown me out.
Anyways, all I say is I'm pretty sure I'll be going along, and she said I couldn't go then. I was just like, "Are you kidding? I've driven on road trips to Houston, San Antonio, Austin, and Dallas to see concerts by myself, but you don't want to let me go DOWNTOWN to a concert alone? I'm 25." And of course came the, "You can't use how you're 25 only when it works to your advantage, blah blah blah." Cause of course everyone knows how I don't work and how I've changed my major who knows how many freaking times and am still in school and am just the most awful, irresponsible person in the whole wide world. Fine. You get the matches, and I'll get the stake. And I GET that aspect of her argument when it comes to when I get a little out of control with my spending habits. I do need to be treated like a kid when I want to spend too much money on stuff I don't NEED, and I'm just being a brat and overindulging, and I always suck it up and let her scold me like the kid I want to act, and I can own up to that. I'm not proud of every single one of my characteristics; so okay, yell at me because I'm an evil mid-twenty year old who won't get a checking account because apparently, not wanting to balance a checkbook was somehow predisposed in my genetic make-up and somehow irreversibly connected to the nerve in my brain that's supposed to be all buddy-buddy with responsibility, but we're talking about driving downtown for a Maroon 5 concert. It's not like they're Slipknot. For whatever reason, she's doing it just to be mean. She can't seriously be worried about me driving freaking 10 minutes to get to a concert when I drive 4 hours back and forth between home and school who the hell knows how many times a year. And it's like, "Fine, want me to lie? I will." Like I can't just say I'm going with one of my girlfriends and go by myself, anyway? So she'd rather I go with these people who will only want to go out and get drunk? That's better than me going alone and just coming back home? I'm just AGITATED. *breathes* Okay, end vent.
On a more positive note, I saw a commercial for a new TV show called "Grey's Anatomy." And I'm so eeeeexcited for it! Patrick Dempsey's in it! I have loved that man since I was a kid and saw "Can't Buy Me Love." And he is STILL hot. He is married, but it's okay. Just look, don't touch. Heck, like if I could touch, I'd have a gut worthy enough to do it? Heck no. I can't even work up the nerve to talk to the guys I think are cute that are in my classes. Every time I go to a concert, I can barely even just ask for pictures or autographs, and that's not only NOT hitting on them, but doing what everyone else around me is doing. I'm such a spaz sometimes.
My 'positive note' was based on a TV show. Geez. Maybe I do need to go get drunk.
I guess it's a good thing that I haven't been in a dating mood, because all of the guys I meet don't...I don't know. Pop out at me, I guess. It's just one more potential heartbreak with a generic personality attached to it, so it just doesn't seem worth the trouble. I know that must sound mean, but I'm sorry. I am pooped. I may have only one serious relationship under my belt, but that relationship, I'm sure for the both of us, had moments where it felt like it'd lasted in dog years, and the in between guys were enough shady to keep me on this hiatus a little while longer.
I'm bored, not tired, but tired. .... Boo to this stupid mood.
Anyways, all I say is I'm pretty sure I'll be going along, and she said I couldn't go then. I was just like, "Are you kidding? I've driven on road trips to Houston, San Antonio, Austin, and Dallas to see concerts by myself, but you don't want to let me go DOWNTOWN to a concert alone? I'm 25." And of course came the, "You can't use how you're 25 only when it works to your advantage, blah blah blah." Cause of course everyone knows how I don't work and how I've changed my major who knows how many freaking times and am still in school and am just the most awful, irresponsible person in the whole wide world. Fine. You get the matches, and I'll get the stake. And I GET that aspect of her argument when it comes to when I get a little out of control with my spending habits. I do need to be treated like a kid when I want to spend too much money on stuff I don't NEED, and I'm just being a brat and overindulging, and I always suck it up and let her scold me like the kid I want to act, and I can own up to that. I'm not proud of every single one of my characteristics; so okay, yell at me because I'm an evil mid-twenty year old who won't get a checking account because apparently, not wanting to balance a checkbook was somehow predisposed in my genetic make-up and somehow irreversibly connected to the nerve in my brain that's supposed to be all buddy-buddy with responsibility, but we're talking about driving downtown for a Maroon 5 concert. It's not like they're Slipknot. For whatever reason, she's doing it just to be mean. She can't seriously be worried about me driving freaking 10 minutes to get to a concert when I drive 4 hours back and forth between home and school who the hell knows how many times a year. And it's like, "Fine, want me to lie? I will." Like I can't just say I'm going with one of my girlfriends and go by myself, anyway? So she'd rather I go with these people who will only want to go out and get drunk? That's better than me going alone and just coming back home? I'm just AGITATED. *breathes* Okay, end vent.
On a more positive note, I saw a commercial for a new TV show called "Grey's Anatomy." And I'm so eeeeexcited for it! Patrick Dempsey's in it! I have loved that man since I was a kid and saw "Can't Buy Me Love." And he is STILL hot. He is married, but it's okay. Just look, don't touch. Heck, like if I could touch, I'd have a gut worthy enough to do it? Heck no. I can't even work up the nerve to talk to the guys I think are cute that are in my classes. Every time I go to a concert, I can barely even just ask for pictures or autographs, and that's not only NOT hitting on them, but doing what everyone else around me is doing. I'm such a spaz sometimes.
My 'positive note' was based on a TV show. Geez. Maybe I do need to go get drunk.
I guess it's a good thing that I haven't been in a dating mood, because all of the guys I meet don't...I don't know. Pop out at me, I guess. It's just one more potential heartbreak with a generic personality attached to it, so it just doesn't seem worth the trouble. I know that must sound mean, but I'm sorry. I am pooped. I may have only one serious relationship under my belt, but that relationship, I'm sure for the both of us, had moments where it felt like it'd lasted in dog years, and the in between guys were enough shady to keep me on this hiatus a little while longer.
I'm bored, not tired, but tired. .... Boo to this stupid mood.