Year-End updates
hmmm how come ppl not updating lj anymore?
wow realised i've kinda been holding my breath since early Oct coz things just kept on coming. Bertubi-tubi. N now its already end Nov!
went through a lot this past few months and looking back, i wished i hadn't done certain things but upon reflecting it's really God's will that HE made me undergo all the trials and tribulations. N of coz to find out how ttsh works :P HE knows best and HE knows I'd be able to withstand the extreme pain and the hurt. Although the small voices still seeking answers and kept asking why, I've willed or rather hauled myself to take the slow steps forward.
Alhamdulillah made it through coz my true friends and of course the ever loving and supportive family constantly have my back. With heavy heart and through many nights of crying myself to sleep, I managed to tread each day completing the tasks thrusted upon my shoulders. Managed to co-ordinate the ministry team for mixed public service netball carnival, attended APEC voices of the future, my 1st capoeira batizado (graduation), emak's & abah's birthdays in oct & nov respectively.
And most importantly I hope I've managed to brighten up the day albeit for few hours for Midzi & Ana respectively. Never fails to bring a tear each time I think of how rough their love story had been. Seeing how they started out as friends almost a decade back, thankful that they've decided to move onto the next stage in their life. Honestly I was sceptical (although more bitter coz i thought i was being left out in the wedding preps heh) but as the day drew nearer I realise these fellas are really gonna get hitched!
there's really more that I wanna do but exhaustion kept creeping in. i've set some sights on my personal and professional goals and that's what would motivate and keep me motivated. InsyAllah.
I thank you for making me see the real you. Though painful, i'm slowly trying to come to terms that the guy I truly loved and hoped to build a future with is well and truly *gone* i stood through the many unhappy moments like a rock, never swaying, never straying yet i still can't seem to give enough to make you stay. i wish i could dissect and do a post-mortem/AAR on what I had done wrong but i see no point now. Biarlah masa menguburkan segala.
Side note: Babies galore this week! From Baby Nuryn on Mon to Baby Iman today. Was supposed to pay a visit to see Aishah's bro n sis-in-law who just gave birth also to baby boy but too tired on Fri :)
For now, just wanna bask in the remaining sunlight on this very lazy sunday...
wow realised i've kinda been holding my breath since early Oct coz things just kept on coming. Bertubi-tubi. N now its already end Nov!
went through a lot this past few months and looking back, i wished i hadn't done certain things but upon reflecting it's really God's will that HE made me undergo all the trials and tribulations. N of coz to find out how ttsh works :P HE knows best and HE knows I'd be able to withstand the extreme pain and the hurt. Although the small voices still seeking answers and kept asking why, I've willed or rather hauled myself to take the slow steps forward.
Alhamdulillah made it through coz my true friends and of course the ever loving and supportive family constantly have my back. With heavy heart and through many nights of crying myself to sleep, I managed to tread each day completing the tasks thrusted upon my shoulders. Managed to co-ordinate the ministry team for mixed public service netball carnival, attended APEC voices of the future, my 1st capoeira batizado (graduation), emak's & abah's birthdays in oct & nov respectively.
And most importantly I hope I've managed to brighten up the day albeit for few hours for Midzi & Ana respectively. Never fails to bring a tear each time I think of how rough their love story had been. Seeing how they started out as friends almost a decade back, thankful that they've decided to move onto the next stage in their life. Honestly I was sceptical (although more bitter coz i thought i was being left out in the wedding preps heh) but as the day drew nearer I realise these fellas are really gonna get hitched!
there's really more that I wanna do but exhaustion kept creeping in. i've set some sights on my personal and professional goals and that's what would motivate and keep me motivated. InsyAllah.
I thank you for making me see the real you. Though painful, i'm slowly trying to come to terms that the guy I truly loved and hoped to build a future with is well and truly *gone* i stood through the many unhappy moments like a rock, never swaying, never straying yet i still can't seem to give enough to make you stay. i wish i could dissect and do a post-mortem/AAR on what I had done wrong but i see no point now. Biarlah masa menguburkan segala.
Side note: Babies galore this week! From Baby Nuryn on Mon to Baby Iman today. Was supposed to pay a visit to see Aishah's bro n sis-in-law who just gave birth also to baby boy but too tired on Fri :)
For now, just wanna bask in the remaining sunlight on this very lazy sunday...