music has ruined my life.
I need to be back at school. I had a really long talk to Luke yesterday about music and where we are and stuff since we left in May and really, it is kind of disgusting how much music has dictated my life. I feel like I have gotten to a point where I am just totally restless about everything I have to do for next semester and next semester in general. Whenever there is any kind of a slow moment just sitting in the car or whatever I feel guilty for not doing something. I know that if I dont get into the BCSO this fall, it is just going to be one of those huge let downs that will take me a good month or more to really get past, ie, alll-state/gbfa. And I know that that kind of affect would be really bad on the rest of everything going on next semester. I dont know how it happened in my schedule, or why they would ever suggest that someone in my majors take the classes that they suggest, but i am taking traditional harmony, harmony III, and counterpoint, all at the same time. I'm also in the middle of applying for a better scholarship because I have finally come to terms with the fact that if I finish school at Berklee it would be financial suicide, especially if I need another year for a double major, which is almost always required. This sounds like a lot of bitching, which i guess it is, but as much as I love this, I'm getting tired. And for as much as I love it, I am lucky for that obnoxious nagging in the back of my conscience. That same voice however is the one that knows the mbta plays a major third before the doors close and sometimes a major sixth on the red line and past government center on the blue line. I just wish there were some kind of an off-season.