they tried to make me go to rehab, i said- no, no, no.
So I've been kind of stupidly reckless lately. I am just so sick of work, and that is making me do stupid things, like hang up on the people who pick up the phones. I hate, hate, hate barnes and nobles already, and starbucks is only giving me enough hours to keep me in the system, which is close to nothing. Today the thought of going back to my camp director and begging for my job back actually crossed my mind. I never thought that I was one of those kinds of people that needed a constant kind of structure to their daily routienes, but the lack of school and such is driving me insane. I think its because I dont have any kind of creative outlet at all. Not to sound all stupid, but it really does make a difference. I would pick up lessons again, but I'm in no shape for that yet. I dont know but I need to do something. I dont know why I feel the need to always be constantly busy and involved, but its true, thats when Im the most content.
Sometimes my dad drives me nuts. He thinks that 12 foot pig last week or whatever is a hoax. Yea dad, someone just grew a GIANT pig and then decided to put it on world news for fun. Home is driving me out of my freaking mind.
queston: is it worth $500 of my own money to fly to oregon to see rachael. I love her to death, but that amount of money is pretty large, especially if I am going to drop more than that for Germany.
My lj is getting so stupid, this entry is so selfish. I'm pissing myself off.
Sometimes my dad drives me nuts. He thinks that 12 foot pig last week or whatever is a hoax. Yea dad, someone just grew a GIANT pig and then decided to put it on world news for fun. Home is driving me out of my freaking mind.
queston: is it worth $500 of my own money to fly to oregon to see rachael. I love her to death, but that amount of money is pretty large, especially if I am going to drop more than that for Germany.
My lj is getting so stupid, this entry is so selfish. I'm pissing myself off.