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It's one of THOSE days. Maybe because it's raining in LA and it never rains in LA. Or maybe it's just me? This semester doesn't feel as good as last semester did. I feel kind of sad today. There is no reason for it, I just feel a little sad. It's one of those days where I want to just chain smoke, read a good book, and listen to Elliot Smith. Well, we can't smoke in the dorm. I AM listening to Elliot right now. And I WILL read a good book after I am done with this entry.
It feels like New York City today even though I've only been on campus. Everyone was walking around with their hoods held tight around their heads, smiling when they made eye contact with someone because it seemed so ridiculous that it was raining. I guess sometimes I just feel like I'm in my own world and that's good, I do like my world, but there aren't many others who want to make the effort to get in to my world or understand it. Sometimes I like to observe things rather than be a part of things. And hey, that's why I want to be a journalist right? I think so much but get frustrated when I can't express my thoughts. I can't express my thoughts beautifully like the great writers and I want to be able to so bad. Otherwise what I think just stays in my head and I get angry that it won't come out. That people don't know how I feel or understand it. That people think there isn't much going on in my head because I don't express it. Maybe that is my frustration. Maybe that is why I feel a little sad today.
Ha. Going along with people thinking there is not much going on in my head...what I am about to say won't make that seem better. Unless we look at the positive side of it: that there is too much going on in my head. Well.... I forgot the password to my music blog so I may have to make a new one. That is all.
It feels like New York City today even though I've only been on campus. Everyone was walking around with their hoods held tight around their heads, smiling when they made eye contact with someone because it seemed so ridiculous that it was raining. I guess sometimes I just feel like I'm in my own world and that's good, I do like my world, but there aren't many others who want to make the effort to get in to my world or understand it. Sometimes I like to observe things rather than be a part of things. And hey, that's why I want to be a journalist right? I think so much but get frustrated when I can't express my thoughts. I can't express my thoughts beautifully like the great writers and I want to be able to so bad. Otherwise what I think just stays in my head and I get angry that it won't come out. That people don't know how I feel or understand it. That people think there isn't much going on in my head because I don't express it. Maybe that is my frustration. Maybe that is why I feel a little sad today.
Ha. Going along with people thinking there is not much going on in my head...what I am about to say won't make that seem better. Unless we look at the positive side of it: that there is too much going on in my head. Well.... I forgot the password to my music blog so I may have to make a new one. That is all.