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late late night entry.
it's bad when you don't like your best friend. i can't tell if it's jealousy or what. she's very competetive with me and always feels the need to win. i introduced her to all my friends and she kind of takes over. maybe it's that my personality is weaker and i let the jealousy get in the way? but i've had other friends that have had awesome personalities and were goodlooking but there wasn't a competetiveness in our friendship. it makes me not want to be around her with certain people. i've never met someone like that in a good way and a bad way. she just talks SO much and doesn't give anyone else a chance to get a word in. i guess it's cool that she can engage in conversation? but i really can't take it much anymore. maybe i just need the break but i've never had a friend like that who just takes over everything, with my other friends, as corny as it is we work together, it's not a competition with eachother to get more friends be skinnyer get more guys. she really overpowers me for some reason and i hate it, it just doesnt feel good at all and i hate being around that. i wish i could describe exactly how she is more thoroughly but i really can't. i know i need to talk to her about it, because maybe she doesnt realize what she does? but at the same time i don't want her to be dramatic about it or upset or anything. i should sleep... 8:00 class.
it's bad when you don't like your best friend. i can't tell if it's jealousy or what. she's very competetive with me and always feels the need to win. i introduced her to all my friends and she kind of takes over. maybe it's that my personality is weaker and i let the jealousy get in the way? but i've had other friends that have had awesome personalities and were goodlooking but there wasn't a competetiveness in our friendship. it makes me not want to be around her with certain people. i've never met someone like that in a good way and a bad way. she just talks SO much and doesn't give anyone else a chance to get a word in. i guess it's cool that she can engage in conversation? but i really can't take it much anymore. maybe i just need the break but i've never had a friend like that who just takes over everything, with my other friends, as corny as it is we work together, it's not a competition with eachother to get more friends be skinnyer get more guys. she really overpowers me for some reason and i hate it, it just doesnt feel good at all and i hate being around that. i wish i could describe exactly how she is more thoroughly but i really can't. i know i need to talk to her about it, because maybe she doesnt realize what she does? but at the same time i don't want her to be dramatic about it or upset or anything. i should sleep... 8:00 class.