I LEAVE TODAY!!!
i leave for europe today. rome&the vatican city, pisa, nice, monaco, florence, versailles and paris. :o) im nervous, ive never been without my family, moreover MY BROTHER, for ten days. i rarely, if ever, go without at least texting breanna but shell be off with jeff so im sure thats all good. ill miss her so much. its times like these you notice the people that make you so happy and your life so wonderful. it killed me to say goodbye to one of my very best friends, obviously right? but the worst part was that weve been fighting and i hated not saying goodbye and so she said "come here" after we both had hugged and freaked out with the rest of our friends and she came up and hugged me the hardest ive ever been hugged. fighting just happens but it never ruins a friendship as deep and meaningful as the one i have with this girl. i hope she has the best spring break out of all of us. damn if she doesnt deserve it. i rather her come with us but it didnt happen. college is gonna be painful. ive been with these girls, this class for seven years. some people ive gotten to know more recently than that but the atmosphere and comfort is seven years old. how do i just up and leave one day to go to the place im not sure i even want to go, i mean i KNOW i wanna go to italy, france and monaco and this is so hard. i cried when i hugged my brother then ran after him and hugged him again. i just love him so much. ive known him for all my life and no one has ever or ever could mean more. he enver questions me, he knows my flaws and knows how to get around them. its so weird and sounds so gay and all that but its true. hes my very very best friend. to watch him go to college this year will be hell but at least ill be at home so i know what i have arund me. next summer i leave. i leave my home but comfort level. i always can tell a person to do that but myself? no i cant. i wanna be an adventurer i wanna be independant and un sheltered. wow am i not ven close. im not bold and im not outgoing ost of the time, i mean i am with my friend around so how will i ever get anywhere in college? im not special or smart or unique in anyway. im the stereotypical thing. oh god im rambling like no other. when i come abck ill have been to my absolute dream destinations. ANNA&ALISON have a great wonderful fantastic break. i wish i could stay and hang out with you girls. i hope its fun fun fun! i love you sooo much <3. CHRISTI have a wonderful wonderful wonderful break i cant tell youhow much i love you and miss you. i love so many people and i will miss them all so much. i hope the softball team does well and has TONS of fun in florida along with EVERYONE ELSE GOING TO FLORIDA. thats to jeff and bre. and mindy, stevie and steve. be safe, wear sunscreen, use a rubber. i know its just ten days but no one knows what can happen in ten days. and ten days without the people i love with my life is a lifetime, its an eternity.