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i should be studying, but my brain cannot seem to focus.
my temper is so awful.
i hate it.
temper aside, this will be the last entry i post that will be for "non-friends", and, i am making a wise decision by deleting a friend or two. times change and so do people, not that anyone needs me to tell them that. truly i am tired of the judgement. and the masked or blatant hatred. i don't understand much other than that i have spent my whole life struggling to be happy. i don't want to struggle anymore. i don't want five people pointing fingers at me every time i mess something up. i opened myself up to that, i know. but, i am done with it.
one final rude action from an ex boyfriend at school the other day has pushed me to the limit. i have had it told to me more times than i can count: i am giving them what they want. some is most certainly deserved, but this far down the road, i do not believe it is. the more recent wounds i understand a little bit better, but, even those, they seem too harsh.
i am so far from perfect and i will be the first to admit it.
maybe that's what you need to hear?
anyways. goodbye, goodluck.
my temper is so awful.
i hate it.
temper aside, this will be the last entry i post that will be for "non-friends", and, i am making a wise decision by deleting a friend or two. times change and so do people, not that anyone needs me to tell them that. truly i am tired of the judgement. and the masked or blatant hatred. i don't understand much other than that i have spent my whole life struggling to be happy. i don't want to struggle anymore. i don't want five people pointing fingers at me every time i mess something up. i opened myself up to that, i know. but, i am done with it.
one final rude action from an ex boyfriend at school the other day has pushed me to the limit. i have had it told to me more times than i can count: i am giving them what they want. some is most certainly deserved, but this far down the road, i do not believe it is. the more recent wounds i understand a little bit better, but, even those, they seem too harsh.
i am so far from perfect and i will be the first to admit it.
maybe that's what you need to hear?
anyways. goodbye, goodluck.